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Here is a secret, I have not told anyone my weight until I got on this site. I even battled the doctor and refused to get on the scale. It was bad. And no one has known my pant size since high school. I was a size 8 then, after I was attacked I hid myself and started hiding behind my weight and making myself feel better with food. Starting last October I decided I was ready to stop hiding and start a weight loss journey, I want to feel pretty again and not scared. This is hard for me to admit or even put it out there but Starting in October 2016 I was 362 lbs and a pant size of 34.........As of today May 26, 2017 I weigh 336lbs and a pant size of 24. It may not seem a lot to some because I am still so large, but I have dropped ten pant sizes and feel stronger physically and mentally then I have in a very long time. I use to make jokes that the skinny girl I once was had been eaten by the fat me now. I am ready to take my life back and in 10 pant sizes I think I have made a huge investment in myself! I say to everyone else, you can do this the only one in your way is yourself. And the best investment you can ever make in life is an investment for your own health and well being.
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336.0 lb
Lost so far: 101.0 lb.
Still to go: 86.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 1.4 lb a week
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You are awesome. Never let anyone tell you that you aren't.
26 May 17 by member: jeannieselby
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Congrats! I have been at a stalemate between 197-195 and not losing any pounds lately. You have helped me gain my willpower back to try harder to lose more, so Thank You for your TRUTH!!
26 May 17 by member: Lucygirl1
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Excellent!
Well done for your achievements
Inspirational post
Thank you
26 May 17 by member: poppycom
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I'm right there with you! That's exactly why I gained the weight; to hide. I've been trying to get it off for years and it would not come off. This time, I'm in a better head space and I have the right tools. Congrats!!!!! :-)
26 May 17 by member: Yourpissingmeoff
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You are courageous! Thank you for being inspiring. I had been between 243 and 249 for about 3 years now. At the beginning of March I got a bacterial infection in my lower abdomen. I lost about 12 pounds. After that I had enough. I changed everything. I started at a size 22 and 250. Now I am a size 18 and 214. It is only 36 pounds and 2 pants sizes but, I feel like the weight of the world has been lifted off of me. I hope your journey continues to be a strong and positive one.
26 May 17 by member: butterflygirl42
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Dearest KickingCarbs you are not the only one. As a childhood abuse survivor, I have PTSD and didn't remember my trauma until the statute of limitations had long past. I didn't really start gaining until I was out of their reach and away from the people I blamed for not protecting me. Then I was hurt again by people I trusted. It's been a long road to now and deciding that my health and living to see my grandchildren is more important to me than hiding from possibly being hurt or abused again. I keep my journal to only those following because I do air some hard memories occasionally and I want to give people the option to step away. It's not an easy journey any of us face that have hidden behind the fat and let it shelter us from the attention while we retard our sexual responses to situations and people. If you are like me you are hyper-aware and paranoid. And food is/was a comfort that has to stop being that as you take comfort in the world and people around you. I wish you good luck 🍀 and bright blessings on your journey 🙆🏻 my friend may you find your way clear into the sunshine ☀️
27 May 17 by member: smprowett
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