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Ok, so, have you ever had a sudden jump in weight even though you KNOW you haven't gained that much fat? I was weighing 250.6 for a few days and SO excited to finally get out of the 250's, then I cheated for three days...but one day was just 2000 calories AND I did spin that day so that day, worse case scenario, should have been maintenance - the other two days was about 1000 calories over, max each day...so that's 2000 calories over maintenance and I'm UP 4.2 lbs???? And I've been up that much for a week now so I doubt it's water...but a pound is supposed to be 3500 calories, right? So how is this possible??? :sigh: I feel like I can't be human...I went to spin like a mad woman, counted all my calories and it was one step forward, three steps back, so depressing :(.
Anyway....I watched this very inspirational speaker on youtube that gives pep talks to people to help them believe they can be successful at weight loss, which is what I believe is the only thing I need help with...I don't mind eating less, I don't mind exercising...but I get discouraged easily and want results RIGHT AWAY. The speaker said that when you want results RIGHT AWAY that you are not loving yourself the way you are right now...that some how your thinking is that you're only worth something or will only like yourself when you are at an acceptable weight. Well - I cried when she said it, because I knew it was true! I haven't been back this high in weight in so long and I haven't been taking care of myself or doing anything fun since I got this big again, I've been wearing buns everyday and avoiding ALL social situations telling myself I can't see anybody until I'm back down in weight. I'm afraid to face everyone!
Anyway...This whole drinking thing is my down fall big time...thinking I may need zero booze and keep my calories at 1500-1700 and stay OFF the scale for two months! And I'll get there when I get there and try to love myself in the mean time <3
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254.8 lb
Lost so far: 18.2 lb.
Still to go: 104.8 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 17 August 2016:
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1712 kcal
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Fat: 87.97g | Prot: 110.10g | Carb: 136.15g.
Breakfast: Great Value Canned Tuna in Water, Green Mountain Farms Cream Cheese & Greek Yogurt, Oroweat Double Fiber English Muffins, Coffee-Mate Sugar Free Hazelnut Powder Coffee Creamer. Lunch: Olive Oil, Juanita's Foods Pozole Pork and Hominy Soup, Lettuce Salad with Assorted Vegetables. Dinner: Lee Kum Kee Sriracha Chili Sauce, Mission Yellow Corn Tortillas, Smart Chicken Boneless Skinless Chicken Breast Fillets. Snacks/Other: Atkins Endulge Caramel Nut Chew Bar, Herdez Salsa Verde, Jell-O Sugar Free Chocolate Pudding Snack. more...
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gaining 2.0 lb a week
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Self reflection isn't easy, in fact, if can be painful. Cheats can not be for days if you want the weight loss. You must be super consistent to see the pounds drop. In the beginning cheats should be none. Booze......it's not going to get you to your goal. We humans can be so impatient sometimes. Who doesn't want results quickly? BUT, did you put the weight overnight? If not, then how can you expect the weight to come off overnight? Things don't always happen as quickly as we want them to......that's life. You don't need to stay off the scale until it shows you the numbers you want........you need to get on the scale to show you the truth about where you are in regards to your weight loss. Now, does that mean because the number is high that you are worthless? NO. Is Sharon only worth a number? NO. Instead of getting up in the morning and finding everything that's wrong and starting up with the negative self-talk, get up thinking about the positive things in your life. You have your sight, you can see, you can walk, you can talk........you are alive and God has granted you another day. I doubt people are seeing you in the way you are seeing yourself. Take your hair down, put some nice makeup on and greet the world. If some only see weight then you don't need them and it's their problem not yours.
17 Aug 16 by member: Engeland
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WOW, Sharon, you seem to have alot going on in your life. It can take a toll on so many different areas of your life, besides drinking and food. I'm sorry you have the social issues about your weight. Those are hard to overcome. I know, I used to go out all the time, now I just make excuses to my friends as to why I cannot go. There is NO reason why we should have to put our life on hold because we think others will see us in a negative light. I hope you will find the strength you need to say Heck, I'm gonna do this no matter what I have to deal with.
If you can just see what it might be like when you reach your goals and you are able to go out, feel good about your weight and enjoy life again. As bad as I want to (Depression eat) I turn away. I make myself say NO. I am NOT getting any younger and if I cannot do this now, I feel it will be too late for me, and I will be too old for it to matter what I look like. So I demand more from myself than I ever have. I hope you are able to find your balance and stick with it. from your Pic, you have a Beautiful face. That's a good start! Best of luck. And if I said anything that was wrong or hurtful, it was not my intention...
17 Aug 16 by member: IM4UTEX
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People who know you and like you, see you, not your weight. If people are judging you by your figure, then they aren't the kind of friends you need. Probably people think less about that than you are imagining. Aside from first impressions, people care much more about themselves than about you and won't care nearly as much as you do about how fat you are. A nice smile and friendly demeanor go a long way toward people liking you. On diets: this site is a treasure trove of info. Find some folks here who are eating the way you prefer, see how their weight loss is going and read their food logs. That way you can get an idea of how to eat and exercise to achieve the goals you have in mind. Pay attention to their macro nutrient proportions and total calories, then model your plan on those success stories and talk to those people for tips. Best to you!
17 Aug 16 by member: erikahollister
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You and me we need to focus on being happy and believe in ourselves.
And also, fuck alcohole, you can havefun without it
17 Aug 16 by member: clementing
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Thanks everybody, you guys are all so sweet and full of good advice <3
17 Aug 16 by member: Sharons Victory
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