blondette731's Journal, 03 July 2015

UGH! I failed miserably the last year, and through depression highs and lows I've managed to gain WAAAY too much weight. I don't feel good..ever. I want to wake up and feel rested and ready to tackle the day, not pushing the snooze button for more sleep. I want to be able to go to a family outing and feel confident. In a family full of stick figures, being the fat one forever, I can't handle that.

I don't just want to get skinny, I actually really would prefer to keep my curves, I just want to be toned. I don't want my arm fat to keep waving goodbye after I've stopped. I don't want my thighs to be raw and red after wearing a skirt for a day. I don't want to feel gross, not by the way I look, just because of what I eat. I want to do everything I can to feel better, I NEED to know that I'm doing everything I can to keep healthy.

Being a foodie and restricting your food intake is VERY difficult. I'm finding out things that I thought were healthy are actually pretty bad. Learning curve I guess. And being a stoner doesn't help at all. I get the munchies and next thing I know I'm making bacon (sidenote, I REALLY WANT FREAKING BACON!) I can do this though. I can record everything I eat and get some more exercise in. I can do it. Hopefully..

Diet Calendar Entries for 03 July 2015:
2123 kcal Fat: 17.52g | Prot: 31.16g | Carb: 296.62g.   Lunch: McDonald's Strawberry Banana Smoothie (Small). Dinner: Hidden Valley Southwest Chipotle Dressing, Dole Shredded Carrots, Progresso Chick Peas, Kroger Diced Grilled Chicken Breast, Red Gold Diced Tomatoes, Hard-Boiled Egg, Brown Rice (Medium-Grain, Cooked). Snacks/Other: Mike's Harder Lemonade, Ocean Spray Cranberry Juice Cocktail. more...
2378 kcal Activities & Exercise: Desk Work - 7 hours, Resting - 9 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...

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I know EXACTLY how you feel I'm in nursing school and I've packed on the weight I feel horrible always I have no self confidence my boyfriend is hard core in to the gym and I hate it he's so fit I'm so fat it kills me I feel like people look at us and wonder why he's with me I just want confidence I want to feel better I know once I feel better I will be happier I want to be able to ride roller coasters with my kids and just be active I honestly know how you feel about being a foodie food is my get away not just food but sugar it makes me happy I'm so embarrassed to say it but it does but we got this girl!! 
03 Jul 15 by member: Nikki0333
@Blondette731 - You echoed exactly how a majority of us feel, that's a huge first step! Welcome back! 
03 Jul 15 by member: Frosty Heimdall

     
 

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