Sometimes it's hard not to still feel like the girl on the left. This picture was during our family photos before my husband left for deployment. They were taken end of June 2017. He left in July. I am now 40lbs lighter. Although I have gained some muscle, confidence and lost the weight. It isn't always peachy. My body still isn't where I want it to be, but I am on my way. Hoping to ring in the new year at 190. Plan to be 185 by the time my husband returns. I think my revised goal will be 164. I was going to go for 154 to get in my the skin of my teeth to normal on the BMI scale, but now I am kind of excited at the prospect of just weighing near what my husband now weighs. After he gained 15lbs working out and drinking protein shakes. I can't wait to see him. Also for him to see the new me. I'm still me just a little less mass.