|
It's funny, I didn't feel lighter or better till I weighed in this morning. Loss 10 lbs since May. This is were I usually screw up, when I feel a bit thinner, I go back to the ways that got me there in the first place. It's like a false sense of self-assurance. Or whatever. Whatever it is, it doesn't really matter. I'm going on...
Oddly enough, for the first time ever, thinking about when I'll be at goal I got a little panicky. What if I'm not at ease as a skinny person. Because being a fat person is now my persona. What if I don't know who I am anymore. I know for awhile I changed fields of work, totally opposite of what I was doing, and it took me years to feel comfortable and to recognize myself. Although very good at what I was doing, I just didn't recognize myself. I couldn't believe I was doing field work when all I ever done was office. Really, really strange and hard to explain.
I have so many plans on who I want to be and how I want to be. I'm hoping I'll have more self assurance, and confidence to do things I want to do. I'll join Toastmasters. I'm hoping I won't be so self conscious. I've joined Toastmasters before, and what a disaster. I couldn't get two words out in front of my peers. I even developed a nervous tick while speaking. Brutal!!!
Anyway. I have a terrific idea (I think) for FS, on how they can enhance their site and provide a little extra for their members. I just don't know if they have someone to read comments or suggestions.
Bye for now. Must have supper. Deadline to eat is 7:00. All is well!
Diet Calendar Entry for 28 June 2014:
|
1418 kcal
|
Fat: 55.82g | Prot: 119.65g | Carb: 124.02g.
Breakfast: Kellogg's All-Bran Original, Bananas, Whole Milk. Lunch: Safflower Oil, Dried Cranberries, Sweet Potato, Lettuce, Avocados, Carrots, Canned Salmon, Balsamic Vinegar de Modena Balsamic Vinegar from Modena. Dinner: Butter, Beef T-Bone Steak (Lean Only, Trimmed to 0" Fat, Cooked, Broiled), Onions. more...
|
|
 Comments
Mauni, MAJOR congrats on the loss! As far as comfort with ourselves when we reach goal - I'm FAR from there but I really believe this is a journey of discovery. As a major 12-step program says, one day at a time. I can't make concrete plans for October 2015 until I take care of the rest of June 2014. Yes, I have some ideas of what life might look like, but detours happen. Try to be IN today. As far as being thin vs a career change, two different animals IMO. Again, the career change happened fairly quickly I'm guessing. Yes, after much thought - but suddenly one day you were doing something very different. The weightloss is different to me. You're changing gradually every day learning a bit more of who you are with each day. Just my random 5cent thoughts ;-)
28 Jun 14 by member: Vickie 5966
|
Well, you definitely look 10 lbs. lighter.
28 Jun 14 by member: ClassicRocker
|
@Vickie - I think you're right. I sometimes overthink. Not 5cents, golden advice! Thanks!
28 Jun 14 by member: NowIunderstand
|
Mauni, I do the same thing. I get so far ahead of myself in my own mind I don't always pay the proper attention to where I am in the present. I'm not a student of Ram Dass, but I've always loved the idea of "Be. Here. Now."
28 Jun 14 by member: Vickie 5966
|
congrats on the weight loss and deciding to stick to it. i think weight loss takes a while, so you should have plenty of time to get used to the idea.
28 Jun 14 by member: Gnewfry
|
| |
|
|
| |
Submit a Comment
You must sign in to submit a comment
|
|
|
Other Related Links
Members
|
NowIunderstand's weight history
|