hottieinafatbody's Journal, 15 January 2009

Oh, I am so sorry to hear you had a bad day. Sometimes we don't understand why it is that we do things like this, but we do. Are you emotional because you know of something in particular that is bothering you, or do you think it is more of a hormonal thing? Just try to figure out why you did it and maybe you can avoid another day like today. Pick yourself up and carry on tomorrow like nothing happened. Just don't look back. Tomorrow is a clean slate and you can start all over. Don't beat yourself up, okay? (((((HUGGS))))) We are here for ya! :0) 

Yes, I know why I did it... my job is stressful for starters and I'm also crazy about this guy who's just my friend half the time and I'm all stressed out over both so for some dumb reason I take it out on myself by sabotaging my diet! You'd think I'd use that as an incentive to lose weight, to stick to my plan ~ but I react in the exact opposite way. I'd see a shrink about it all if I had 50 yrs for someone to try to straighten me out lol 

I wish I could just focus on me, I keep saying I am going to and I will for a very short time but then I lose sight of myself and what I want and need ~ I must just be a self-defeater. 

Can you focus your worry and stress into something like exercise?  

I wish I could. I guess I'm lazy. I think I just really need to take charge of my life. I am a smart individual for the most part and about other things i can be very strong willed and hardly ever give up on anything, I actually thrive in challenging situations (a I'll WIN, you watch me type attitude) but not when it comes to me, when it comes to my own personal being ~ i wonder, if I cut out all outside stimuli if that would help? I cant cut out my work but perhaps this guy, maybe if I really stopped talking to him, maybe I would be more successful with me?