GlennM's Journal, 18 December 2008

Went out with a friend to a local computer/audio/music retailer they sell videos etc. I ran into an old friend who used to live here in my building . I was overweight when he knew me so he was surprised to see the weight loss as it has been over two years since I've seen him. He is the ultimate word for womanizer to put it mildly. He too mentioned I should contact and meet foriegn women. (I brought up how I always had better luck with them). He is originally from Colombia of very European heritage. He gave me his email to contact foriegn women he knows who are interested in American men. So things may work out soon regarding a girlfriend. He's the kind of guy that walks down the street and asks every pretty girl her phone number. They usually just laugh. But persistence pays off he always has a new girlfriend it seems. I can't do that - maybe I should hang around with him and get his confidence. The overwhelming rejections don't bother him since there are the successes. I was a player in the service and in L.A. but it's hard to do here without a car. I don't need a lot of girlfriends at this point. One would be fine. glenn P.S. I got affirmation CDs today regarding financial goalsetting, and keeping organized and keeping better minded. I will get more for other things too to help me with the writing. They are done in a meditative mood setting. They weren't cheap. But already I feel calmer after listening to one CD. I will get one for getting a girlfriend too as my confidence has been shot by my mental struggles. I plan to listen to the CDs daily every day to feel better - one CD one session is better than lots of therapy. I suggest people go to the Internet and find such stuff and get it at their local library and copy them if they can. The past is definitely over now and I'm not going to let it affect me the way I have and it is time to go out and meet new and better friends as I've lost the weight without re-programming my mind now the sky should be the limit....