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this morning i ate some cottage cheese and dark chocolate. that didn't seem too awful. and i had a small bowl of veggies with bbq sauce for dipping as a small lunch. but dinner itself was a stupid call: chinese food. i had general tso's w/fried rice, two egg rolls, and steamed dumplings. i didn't finish the chicken, nor did i finish the rice. i threw like half the dinner out from being full. but i scarfed down the dumplings, egg rolls, and two fortune cookies. if that wasn't enough, i got a dollar bag of cookies not moments ago. did they taste good? yes. do i feel like a fatass? yes.
i think i just need to focus my boredom on something constructive. i know i'm stressed about shit happening in my life and if i turn that into weight, i'm going back to a place i don't ever want to go again. TMI? yep. but i'm here trying to save my f*cking life, so at least this honesty will fuel the fires of motivation and willpower.
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