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I'm not happy. For a lot of reasons but I'm going to change that. I weighed myself today and I am officially the heaviest I have EVER been. I'm disgusted with myself and sick of being unhappy with something I have complete control over. So this is it. I'm going to quit letting myself down. I have to remind myself that I AM strong enough to change this. My self esteem has never been lower (and it's never been anything but devastating to begin with). I've been dealing with a LOT in my personal life and most of it is a byproduct of my self esteem and emotional issues. Those issues have caused me to whole up in the house alone and eat crap and be lazy. The house is a disaster and so is my life. The good news? I have a plan to change all of this. My therapist tells me that working on my self esteem will cause a domino effect with everything else in my life, so that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to finally conquer this weight issue which is something that's held me back my whole life. So basically my life overhaul begins... NOW!
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