kellylean's Journal, 14 February 2008

I hear you, & I'm with you there, my man took me out to dinner for valentines day, & I reckon I ate enough for 3 people so my weight keeps going up & then I get it off, only to put it on again. I don't know where my willpower has gone....anyone seen it hanging around or running away :) 

I know what you mean about willpower - I feel mine slipping away. It seems now that I am getting closer to my goal- it is getting easier to cheat. I wonder if I am intenionally sabatoging myself. I made it through Valentine's Day and managed to fix a healthy dinner with only a small piece of cherry pie for a splurge. However, today was a stressful day at work and I ended up working late and not being able to eat until just a few minutes ago and came home starving and stressed out to boot. Not a good combination for me. I just devoured the rest of the cherry pie (about a fourth). I feel sick with myself and so disappointed. I haven't done this badly in almost a year. Why all of the suddent am I doing this???? 

exactly I feel like i'm sabotaging myself too, It's almost like you can't be allowed to get thin & be happy so it's time to eat. But I've been really good today. Keep strong & be good, we are worth it