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OK, back to where I was before my carb binge. Good grief!! What was I thinking?!?! HAHAHA!!
Not much on my mind except I have my focus back and am clear-headed again about what I want my body to be and feel like. After a lifetime of self-loathing, low self-esteem, and inner hatred of myself, it's very easy to forget what a success feels like, a battle won against that bag junk in the snack machine by eating celery sticks instead to get my crunchy, salty on. The feeling of conquering something, no matter how small and inconsequential to anyone else...knowing I did it all on my own because I know what I want and I'm going after it and I AM going to get it. No more giving in and giving up.
It's OK to slip up and be disappointed in myself. Feeling disappointed means I care about myself and would rather feel proud-because I now know that it feels good. This is where self-esteem comes from...being proud of myself, believing in myself and proving to myself that I can do something if I put my mind to it. These are just words until you get a taste or two. To be told this means nothing unless you really want it, then the words are very clear.
breakfast-Yogurt, protein powder, lemon juice, blueberries
lunch-my veggie soup, tortilla chips (garden of eatin-everything)
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227.0 lb
Lost so far: 13.0 lb.
Still to go: 87.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 10.5 lb a week
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