Instantcrazy's Journal, 04 February 2015

Do you think 42 years old is too old to become an alcoholic? I mean I don't drink at all so I would have a lot of catching up to do. The car I hit has $3000 damage some broken tire thing so I had to turn it in to my insurance company, which means my premiums will go up, which the only reason I have a high premium is because I have a car note, which the only reason I have a car note is because 1 year and 2 days before this accident I had an accident which totaled my paid off 13 year old car and I had to get a lawyer for the first time in my life which settled out of court but still managed to screw up my finances for a while SO I'M JUST A LITTLE BITTER RIGHT NOW. I'm so jealous of the people who sit in the park rocking back and forth laughing to themselves and pointing at their imaginary friends. At least they're having fun together. Then the girlfriend tells me I'm always telling her it's going to be OK and it always is so it'll be OK. Fine. Throw my words back at me. ugh! Right now I just want to call Annie a liar because the sun is NOT shining it's cloudy. I'm going to go sit somewhere laughing wildly to myself now just to watch people walking in a wide path around me... that or I'm just going to get back to work, probably that one.