Instantcrazy's Journal, 09 January 2015

I know you must be freaking out. There is a chance your schedule allows you to completely avoid the times she works or change your schedule. Don't let this side rail you more than it has already. You are stronger than you think! Good Luck! 

You need to contact your employer and explain the situation! 

Well she signed in at 7 this morning so I'm sure she is gone by now. She used to work at one of my other stops but I knew her day off. One of my other stops is super busy on Saturdays so I was thinking of swapping this one with that one. I'm thinking that's a great idea now.  

I just want to thank you guys for supporting me when I post things like this here. I don't have a lot of close in real life friends, and most of you know the background on this already. My first instinct was to tell the girlfriend, but since stalker caused our break up a few months back, I try not to mention her unless I have to. Any time I'm having a bad day, just journaling it out to you guys always seems to make me feel better. You are the best group of people. Thanks!  

Dont hide things from your girlfriend. right now you are doing your job, staying in your own business, but if you fail to tell your gf now, imagine how bad this could get later down the track? 

I have a different view than Anitacc. Maybe it is a person with the same name as your stalker. I wouldn't rock my boat if there isn't any contact with this person. 

Yaaaaaaay! Another IC post! I haven't read it yet. Just needed to say that. 

Pardon the glee a moment ago. I hadn't read any of the content at all. IC, so sorry for what you are going through.  

Lmao! it's ok JW that was perfect!  

I had considered the same name theory because I know while it's not a too, too common name there are other people with that same exact name. I had also considered if I don't tell her she'll be pissed. sigh.  

JW I think you didn't see the post before this one about the desperate giraffe?  

So...don't know the situation but heres my 2 cents having been in a what sounds like something similiar. If it freaks you out you should tell your partner, even if it comes to nothing for 2 reasons. Your partner can help talk you through it and take some of the stress out of the situation and god forbid something does happen your partner is already aware and not getting blindsided by unpleasantness. Good luck whichever you go with! 

I deleted my previous post it sais awww, not night news, it was supposed to say not nice news, dang computer! agreed not telling your partner may lead to extra problems down the road. If she is aware the stalker has shown up again maybe she will be more understanding.  

having been stalked by not just one person but a gang of people for a year, i can say this - the best way to stop it is to not react. I know it seems simplistic, it probably sounds like i am trivializing it, but i swear to you i am not. When i finally outed my stalker on Facebook and started to come outside again, bit by bit, i won back ground by not letting myself fear stuff like having the shades open, going outside, leaving my digs alone at all.. it came back, my strength simply by practicing not giving the bastards my energy, my fear, my suffering to gloat over. They get their kicks from our visible pain and suffering. Want to kick their asses? smile in their faces.. or better yet - blank them. It is the one thing that gave me my life back. I know what it feels like - i was left with severe C-PTSD, and am only now just normalizing and trying to lose the weight i gained from two years of my life spent hiding inside from people that had rendered me too scared to even look outside. You can beat them down by riding the bus and to put it bluntly not giving one single gram of f**k if they are there or not. I know it's hard - but gee yourself up by imagining that they shrink to nothing the longer you ignore them. You can do this sister. xxx