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So I've gained 3.5 pounds since my last weigh in rather than lost. I've always been the type of person who can eat pretty bad and not gain too much weight. I guess my body is just changing or something. I can't imagine that not smoking accounts for that much. Maybe I really have been snacking more without realizing it. I'm really going to religiously track what I eat now like I used to. No alcohol whatsoever for at least a month. It is so strange too, when I look in my mirror at home I don't feel big, when I look in the mirror at work (which is a full size mirror across the entire wall) I don't feel big. I went shopping yesterday, I felt so disgusted by myself in the mirrors in the dressing rooms. I couldn't even fit into a size 3, I didn't even try beyond that so who know if a size 5 fit. I just wanted to leave. I got measured at Victoria's Secret and went from a D to a DDD. Wtf? I, personally, don't think bigger is better. I hate it. I felt really good about that area of my body before. I just hope it goes away with the weight loss because the first time I gained weight I went from like a B to a D and stayed there. THAT time it was good. This is too much.
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