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Where to begin? I am dreading December, a year older and goal NOT met. Goal of 160-163. Yes, I still have time, but it doesn't look good for me. Although Wednesday is official way in day for me, I weighed myself on Monday and I was up a 1/2 a lb. I weighed myself today and I was down a pound and a 1/2. Roller coaster of weight, AWESOME!
I've read in the forums where people mention that no one notices their weight loss and I've been on the end of trying to console, but I totally get it. I was up to 180 when I joined fat secret. Granted after the effects of my menstrual cycle subsided I was down to 177 instantly, but I still started this journey (AGAIN) at 177 and now according to today's weight I am 167. That's 10 dang gone pounds. Not a soul, not a coworker, not people I haven't seen in a while, outright NOBODY has noticed my weight loss :( I had to encourage myself. It reminds me of a passage in the Bible where David is having difficulties with everyone and he decides he has to be an Army of one. I feel like I have to be an Army of one. This weight loss thing is getting difficult. I'm struggling. Yes, I'm losing weight but something is missing... Why would I need the acknowledgement of others when I know that I am doing well? When I look at my reasons for weight loss I see more and more that a lot of it has to do with others opinions of me. My coworkers, my parents, my family and friends. That is a sign of something bigger, something wrong with me. I never could accept myself when I was 177 and as I lose weight I'm still very critical of myself so if/when I do reach my goal will I accept me? I'm figuratively staring in a mirror at myself and I'm finding out that I don't only have work to do with my weight loss, but with my mind and spirit. Ahh, very therapeutic.
Diet Calendar Entries for 30 November 2010:
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1280 kcal
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Fat: 41.28g | Prot: 65.67g | Carb: 166.12g.
Breakfast: hood cottage cheese, Strawberries, Blueberries. Lunch: Footlong Turkey Breast & Ham, Baked BBQ Chips, Steak Tip Portabelo. Dinner: Special K Vanilla Almond Cereal, 2% Reduced Fat Milk. Snacks/Other: White Chip Macadamia Nut Cookie, 100 Calorie Packs Cocoa Roast Almonds (Emerald). more...
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2256 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Calisthenics (light, e.g. home exercise) - 8 minutes, Exercise machine (moderate) - 40 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 12 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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