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I finally got the motivation I needed to lose the weight I've wanted to lose. I had gotten down to 147 two summers ago, and I felt great--12 pounds away from my goal weight! So I relaxed. I stopped watching what I ate. I gained back 15 pounds of that hard-fought fat. I was lazy.
Well my boyfriend told me that my little brother told some girl online (for whom he was showing off and "showing his ass") that I dislike pretty girls because I'm jealous that they're prettier than me. The fact that he was referring to my opinion of a fictional anime character is quite irrelevant. This insult was a double-whammy. It first implies that I'm ugly, and it also suggests that I am jealous about others around me. I almost cried, I was so angry.
So here's my shallow motivation. My little brother has been in LA for the past year and a half, living off of money from my parents and not from an earned paycheck, trying to be an actor. He has often said that he doesn't have a good enough body yet, but he has barely spent any time in the gym or pursuing consistently good eating habits. I am judging that based on the fact that he binge eats junk food every time he comes home to visit (which is clearly everyone else's fault for having bought it!) and his physique hasn't changed in several years--he's not chubby, but he has absolutely zero muscle definition. So I'm going to look better than him.
I want to see my flat stomach. I want to have a definite waist again. I want to be able to do a freaking pull-up. I want to be able to touch my toes. But right now, what I really want is to look way better in a bathing suit than my little brother. I want to go to my full-time job, raise my kids as a single mother, and still have smaller love handles than my asshole little brother. That is my motivation, but hell hath no fury like a woman scorned, right? That insecure-so-over-compensatingly-cocky prick needs to learn what a real healthy and beautiful lifestyle looks like.
I want to lose 20 pounds in six months. By that time, I also want to be able to do at least one unassisted pull-up and five military push-ups. Starting today, no more excuses.
Diet Calendar Entries for 27 June 2013:
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1231 kcal
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Fat: 38.85g | Prot: 56.90g | Carb: 168.84g.
Breakfast: Cuties Clementines, Great Value Pure Cane Sugar, Land O'Lakes Mini Moos Half & Half Creamers, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds). Lunch: Romano's Macaroni Grill Peasant Bread, Water (Bottled), Romano's Macaroni Grill Grilled Chicken Spiedini (Dinner). Dinner: Athenos Roasted Red Pepper Hummus, Peach, Albertsons Popcorn Chicken. Snacks/Other: Water (Bottled), Chocolove Ginger Crystallized in Dark Chocolate, Caramel Naturel Date Almond Rolls, Dynasty Oolong Tea, Water (Bottled). more...
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1853 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
;) - 25 minutes, Resting - 17 hours and 35 minutes, Sleeping - 6 hours. more...
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