I already know that my "basal metabolic rate" or whatever its called is over 1,500. So, I know theoretically I should be eating at least 1,500 calories per day just to sustain my muscle mass. To sustain my current weight, I have to eat almost 2,500 calories--so anything between 1,500 and 2,500 and I would still theoretically be losing weight. Those numbers, of course, don't include the extra exercising and calorie burning that I do on a daily basis.

So basically, yes, I've been very bad, and I'm DEFINITELY feeling it. But I'm honestly not doing it on purpose. I tried real hard this morning and ate a "decent" breakfast. Lots of protein: two turkey sausage links, seven wheat thins, 1/4 cup of cottage cheese, and a decent sized banana. And I am stuuuuuuffed. To the point I feel like I might be sick. This sucks you guys.

It's kind of karmically comical. I was always one of those binge eaters, snackers, ate just to eat. Just because I had a taste for something. And the cravings oooooh I always had the WORST cravings. Now I've done a complete 180. Ate too much before, eating way too little now. Isn't there ever a happy-medium in life?? BAH!!