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Ok little IT box on the floor STOP your creeping! I am following my woe/wol 100%! I'm getting tired of these little up/down/all arounds! But I will not be defeated or discouraged or go back to my old way of eating/thinking/living :-) BUT I can still get a little upset about it, lol. Kind of a pain though when 'life' gets in the way of 'living'! A few people said somethings to me yesterday that I felt were cutting me down, attacking something I said or just plain mean. In the past that would set me off on a binge of food / junk / drink that is not on my woe or in my wol right now. I could feel the emotions welling up inside of me, of my thoughts turning to stopping someplace on the way home to pick up something not on my woe, I could hear myself telling me (in my head) " come on, you deserve it, just go get it and this and that and the other thing, eat & drink and it will taste good and you will feel better and tomorrow you can go back on your food plan, whats the difference a day will make, you know you want to!" Uhhhh, well I 'answered' myself, "nah, not today its not really worth it and I AM worth staying on my woe, at least for today" Plus the weather was horrible (rain & high winds in FL) so I really didn't want to stop on the way home. I would have to go past my house to where they would have the cake, and other goodies & drink that I would want So I said to myself, "lets just go home and if we still want something later, if/when the weather clears then we will go out" Well once I got home and ate something (in my woe plan) and rested awhile, took a nice bath by then I didn't want to go back out. AND the things the other people said didn't matter that much to me anymore since I knew they were saying things from their point of view and in their opinion, it really had nothing to do with me, matter of fact they probably forgot about it all within moments! So why should I allow it to continue to 'attack' me and end up doing harm? So things are better now even if IT creeps around ;-)
Oh, also, today my 'ghost' and I are back on speaking terms, I'm not sure what all went on and I will be guarded in the future but it is good to have him as a friend even if it is on terms which I"m not sure of :-)
Hope ALL is well in FS-Land & take care to ALL :-)
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152.0 lb
Lost so far: 10.0 lb.
Still to go: 4.0 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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gaining 1.4 lb a week
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