08willbegreat's Journal, 05 September 2009

Ok, I feel like a fraud and terrible for letting me down and all of you who come cheer me on here!! The last 3 days I totally threw in the towel and have become the old me...eating bad one day after another..getting into old habits..not workign out..resisting good and falling into temptations...!! I can't even recognize or identify with the gung-ho person who worked out a different class just 3 days ago!!! It's weird how the body gets so quickly used to the old ways and falls into a familiar comfort zone even after months of fighting those to create new habits!!! SCARY THOUGHT!! To know one ALWAYS has to be vigilant and fight hard at the body's inertia and the mind's cravings!

Today I had goldfish crackers for brunch (the whole box!! Yikes, yes, I did discover them again!!! Should have stepped away from the box..), and then chinese for dinner--brown rice and a carton of kung pao chicken with soy and peanuts.

I forced myself to go work out..and put in only 30 mins...but jogged at 4.3 for a good 10 mins, and walked a fair bit at a higher incline..I burned 255 k and 2 miles..so much effort for a measley 255 k, when I must have eaten like 3000 calories so easily in one day!!
Weight has risen alarmingly!!

Yesterday I did really bad all day (subway salad with patty was a good beginning, but then ended up having a scone, 2 coffees, a bag of cheetos, and a bag of cajun trail mix, and later goldfish crackers).
No exercise.

Day before yesterday, Thursday, I had Chinese for dinner. and skipped working out.

Wednesday was bad as well as I didnt work out...

Well, the good news to all this is my big deadline I have been workign on since January of this year is now finally ending this Tuesday!!! Then I can finally carve out a better balance and schedule and make time for myself! No more excuses for that!!!
142.4 lb Lost so far: 35.6 lb.    Still to go: 12.4 lb.    Diet followed poorly.
gaining 33.6 lb a week

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Awwww, Sister, join the club! I've been going through the SAME thing. For me it seems to come in waves. I can do really well on the food plan for a while, then it seems that all of a sudden I just crave the things I shouldn't have and go crazy! Don't know if it's stress or boredom from what I'm eating or what it is but it happens, and I suppose it will always happen now and then. It's how we deal with it that makes a difference. Yes, you did overeat BUT you did some exercise too and that counts for something! Try your best to put it behind you and get back on track food-wise. Thankfully you'll be meeting that big deadline soon. You'll have less stress and more time to take care of YOU. Hang in there! (((HUGS))) 
06 Sep 09 by member: mbhpro
hey, dont be too hard at least you did some exercise! i know where youre coming from though, weve had a busy eating out weekend as its fathers day here today and we ate out last night, lunch today and going out for dinner again tonight! i know i could be sensible and choose the healthiest options on the menu but,.... and.. i havent been on my tread all weekend soooo im not lookin forward to this weeks weighin! have to step it up next few days n see if i can counteract weekend damage! actually i feel blobby!! so looking forward to 2moro and back into routine. good luck to you cheers di 
06 Sep 09 by member: dianet
You've made so much progress already! Don't let this minor set back undo all the work you've done so far. We've all been there. The important thing is that you can identify the problem and learn from the mistakes. One issue that I've heard many people have is that they deprive themselves too much for so long that with added stress it all comes out with a vengence. I don't know if this is the case with you but if it is you might want to consider allowing yourself an occasional indulgence in moderation just to curb bigger temptations. I myself am not as much of a salty snack person as you appear to be but I do have a major sweet tooth with chocolate being my personal kryptonite. Knowimg that I have sensible snacks that I occasionaly have that will satisfy my craving without undoing my efforts like those 100 calorie packs. I savor 1 pack from time to time and it keeps me from binging. Its good that you tried to amend the issue by working out which probably helped a little. As far as being frustrated with how few calories you burned maybe you should try excercising differently. From what I know when the goal is weight loss intenisty is not as important as sustaining. I use an eliptical at my gym and set it to fat burn mode which automatically adjusts the intensity so that I maintain a heart rate that's more likely to tap into my fat stores for energy. I learned that short bursts of energy tap into a different source than steady sustained cardio. Short burst tap into sugar levels and protein but sustained cardio is more likely to convert stored fat into energy which for most of us is the goal. Also its not as important how long you work out as it is how frequently because the more often you workout the higher your resting heart rate is throughout the day. More of the fat you burn for energy is burned at rest than during a workout. The point of working out is more about keeping your resting heart rate at a level throughout the day that is more likely to convert stored fat into energy. Hope that helps.  
06 Sep 09 by member: beatlesfran
It'll be okay, 08! Beatlesfran had some great points. What were you feeling when you bought the junk food and right before when you ate it and during? I think your emotions (not just stress...which exacerbates your emotions) brought about the cravings. Get deeper than the symptoms and try to see the CAUSE behing the cravings. Acceptance and awareness are key big steps in stopping the binges. Linda Craighead's "Appetite Awareness" book is a great read. ((HUGS)) 
06 Sep 09 by member: JulieC
Lots of good advice here and since you've recognized the little missteps you made it should be easy for you to correct. Every once in a while its ok to indulge in some "bad" food so it can remind of how far all the good food has taken you, diet wise. 
06 Sep 09 by member: splendidhammer
it seems to be the nature of the beast, don't be too down on yourself it happens to us all, and don't feel as though you let any of us down, you haven't, you are a great source of strenth and admiration for me and i'm sure many others too. i don't think it's realistic to think that although we know we shouldn't that we won't ever binge or go overboard again. there are those times for all of us(and TOM is no help at all), just know we are here to support you, and i have faith that this is just a minor setback for you and you will get back on track. you are truly at the toughest part of any diet, those last few pounds are the toughest and i think that's when we get the most discouraged and are more tempted to cave. i'm not quite at that point yet but i know it's coming, i know i'll be counting on all my fatsecret buddies for support. and by the way....damn those goldfish!(lol). 
06 Sep 09 by member: vf123
Thank you my friends!!!! Y'all are a wonderful--and perfect--source of support I can always count on!!! People outside of this site don't quite understand the struggles the way we do and it's always such a wondrous thing to be able to come back in here and make our confessions and get help getting back up on that horse!!!! I am blessed I have this site and all of you wonderful friends--this is what has kept me on this journey for 1.5 years, when all other times I had bailed within a month of startign something!! THANK YOU!! I love you all!!! 
06 Sep 09 by member: 08willbegreat
HOT DOG! LOL I cheated this weekend as well! No worries!! You can start fresh and press foward! NO MORE SNACKING! NO MORE CHEATING!Get it together missy! hehe! Luv ya!  
06 Sep 09 by member: Leesah
Love the new profile pic! You look sexy and awesome! 
06 Sep 09 by member: JulieC
Sept 7th: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! May you have an awesome day. =) 
06 Sep 09 by member: JulieC
Happy Birthday on Sept. 7th! Have a GREAT day! :-) 
07 Sep 09 by member: mbhpro
I am impressed at your honesty. Really, that is an accomplishment. Think of all the times you ate in secret, fooling yourself into believing no one would find out. I think honesty is an important first step in dieting. Now you can learn from your mistake and recommit to becoming healthier. Oh, and I hope you have a great birthday! 
07 Sep 09 by member: brittiful
I think we've all been there...don't beat yourself up. I feel like this week has been a bad one for me too! The good thing is you're now re-focused on your goal and that's what matters. It's all "down" from here (weight, that is!!_ 
08 Sep 09 by member: jadenby

     
 

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