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Good morning!
I am up in weight today. No surprise there.
Yesterday, I was hungry. HUNGRY. I'm not sure if this was a result of a busy weekend combined with low calorie intakes, or what happened, but I was craving food, food, food.
The one change I did yesterday that could change anything was that I had 10g of protein before my otherwise fasted morning workout. I've been reading on the LeanGains and AnyManFitness websites about adding BCAA before workouts, and that there are great benefits from it. As I don't have BCAA at hand until it arrives in the mail - because I gotta try this out - they suggest that 10g of protein can be a decent substitute.
I gotta say I felt more energetic and probably lifted a little harder, but this might just be a placebo effect from first try. Jury is still out.
However, I did add 51 calories because of this, and I don't know if this could at all start something for me.
The bad news is that I went way high in calories. The good news is that I only had "proper food". No protein bars, no sugar-filled stuff. No stupid s**t. Just food, plenty of meats, as this was what my body was craving.
The end result was that I ended up going over my RDI by 1000 calories.
Essentially, I am okay with it. My statistics for the last weeks says I am still 2000 under my goal, so it's all good, but of course my head is a little bothered with it. I hate losing control.
Also, of course, I hate gaining the weight that goes with it. As much as I know that this is not any kind of significat fat gain, it's still a gain right now, and something I now have to work off.
I'm not gonna change a thing in my approach though. What I am doing is fine, I think I just ended up going too low on Saturday and Sunday.
If anything, I need to focus on eating enough. I need to keep my body happy. When I don't, I suffer. I end up being hungry, and making poor choices. It's a lot easier to do this when I am satisfied.
So, the next step is to do nothing. I won't even compensate for the calorie intake yesterday, just keep going, sticking to my 2,000 calorie RDI.
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I did my walk this morning - the 10,000 steps were done before work. I did my 8 kilometers total, and it's a good feeling to be on track on this. I love being on track on my goals and have them done early in the morning. It makes me feel accomplished, and that calms me down.
I feel that there is a lot of stress around me these days. I'm not sure I always am aware how hectic my life is, but I hang on the best I can. Some days are easier than others, though, and yesterday seems to be slightly harder. I'll survive it though, and hopefully within RDI. :)
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Today, I have no lunch with me at work, so I will have to go out and get something. I wasn't really planning on this, but that's okay. I can do with a pita as usual.
Yesterday, I realized that I can ask for these made from whole wheat bread! Yay! No more white bread for me at lunches - bring on the slow carbs instead! What I had yesterday was MUCH more fulfilling than usual, most likely because of the whole wheat bread. It was very satisfying.
I doubt that this had anything to do with me being hungry all day. If anything, it helped me some. Still, it wasn't enough for me to not go nuts in food.
Today will be better.
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The plan for today is essentially to enjoy the pita for lunch, about 700 calories, and something yet-to-be-determined for dinner. This one all depends what Wife would like.
I should feel full and satisfied after a large lunch, and I don't think I'll see any problems not eating until dinner as the next meal. This meal can (almost) be as large as I want, as I have 1300 calories to spend on it. This is if I decided to go with beef in my pita. If I go with ham then I'll save 200 calories and can go for 1500 for dinner. There should really be no excuse to stay under.
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I try to be more and more relaxed in my food choices. I record my food, I (mostly) stay under RDI, and I leave it at that.
I really feel that I want to stop obsessing too much. I want to record my food, I want to focus on my macros for strength training, but I don't want to think off every minute of the day. It's a pain in the rear.
So I try harder to just be calm about it. Get a more natural relationship with foods. I know pretty much what I can and can't do, but I also know that I need a short leash, or things will go awry.
When I know what I am eating and the "calorie damage" of it, then I can easily do right. Even with a day like yesterday I am STILL doing right. The setback I saw on today's weigh-in is simply food processing. Looking at the fitbit estimated calorie burn of yesterday, I comsumed 150 calories more than I burned. This equals less than one ounce of fat gain. No problem. It's just a maintenance day.
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Today I am 100% on track. I have to be. Today, and all other days until surgery. :)
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Today, I'm thankful for:
- BEING ON FRICKIN' TRACK! :)
- Mornings with Wife.
- 10,000 steps before work.
- Coffee.
Life is good!
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187.8 lb
Lost so far: 153.9 lb.
Still to go: 0.4 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 18.5 lb a week
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