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The Happiness Project I am reading is by a woman with the last name of Rubin. Not very far into it yet. But that's how I roll with reading. I recently finished "Does this church make my butt look fat" and her prior book "Mennonite in a little black dress" both of which I enjoyed. The current book fits where I am in my life. Trying to sort things out, refocus my own behaviors, figure out how to be "happy" when there is so much "unhappiness" around.
The sun is shining this morning which makes me happy. I love the sun. We've had so many dark and grey days I know this sunshine will help brighten up everyone around here!! I'm a little less than 5 lbs up from my most recent weigh-in here on Fatsecret. I'm focusing on a primarily "juice" approach for the rest of this week. I did eat some baby carrots with yummy greek yogurt, cucumber, dill dip last night and have had a few bites of bread but mostly juice. Weight dipped 2 lbs overnight so I know it is helping my body cleanse and rebalance after my California eating frenzy and birthday celebration!!
We have a night out planned to celebrate our anniversary on Sunday. Concert tickets to see Cowboy Junkies and a dinner out at PF Changs. I bought DH a gift card at Christmas so we'll be using that. We've never eaten at PF Changs ... any recommendations? Where we are at 23 years of marriage, nearly 26 years together, isn't what I expected and I'm focused on learning to accept what is instead of what I had hoped. I do think he still loves me and has forgiven me for my errors earlier this year. The question is what shall I make of this life. Not what he can do for me or how he feels but what shall I do, be, strive for. I'm sure another crisis will present itself, they always do ... I hope I can deal with the next one better than the last one.
I had a few minutes this morning so thought I'd stop by. I do miss writing here. Writing is good for me. Just difficult to balance out all the things I need to do. I am grateful for the many blessings I have in my life. And on I go ... yes still working on practicing kindness to myself (truly a fulltime job!!!), being mindful, and present in each moment. Take care!
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Hey, I do love your entry today. Specially the part about how life isn't what you expected, but trying to focus on accepting what is. I struggle with that too. I find it very easy to become depressed if I dwell too long on the what should be's or should have been's rather than appreciating all that IS. That in itself is practicing kindness not only to ourselves, but to those around us!
Glad the sun is shining for you, have a great time at the concert. Never been to PF Changs, so I can't help you there, but do enjoy!
24 Apr 13 by member: gg-girl
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Boy can I relate to the "What I expected in life" and what it really is...No where near what I wanted at all...Lonely in my world most of the time..even when DH is home...sad but true...:O)
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I miss your journals too. I hope you have a wonderful anniversary dinner Carol. That's a lot of years together and I know you love him uber much BUT you are young and have a long life to live yet and I would seriously ask you to look at how you want to live the rest of that wonderful life. You deserve to be loved unconditionally and to be so happy your head spins. Come back here often, I miss you.
25 Apr 13 by member: sarahsmum
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Doing my best Isabel. I am indeed looking at how I want to live the rest of my life. Focusing on ME right now and seeing what happens. I did indeed vow for better or worse, in sickness and in health, till death do us part and want to honor that committment. A wise man told me prior to my wedding that there are not "good days" and "bad days" but "good years" and "bad years" in marriage. I'm thinking this has been one of those "bad years" and if I just do what I need all will be well. Perhaps I am delusional but such is life. Thanks for caring and looking out for me.
25 Apr 13 by member: madaboutmoose
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I hear you Carol, I hear you, and I commend you for not giving up. Just take care of yourself which it sounds like you are doing. At least you don't have your head in the sand. Thanks for coming on again and visiting my journal too - a real treat - and stay away from chocolate cream cheese!
25 Apr 13 by member: sarahsmum
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