Still under 150, but seems like I am losing ground (again). Emotionally I feel overextended. Currently I am awash with frustration, futility, apathy/complacence, dismay, and if I am honest enough to admit it-- despair and discouragement. Cognitively I get that I "feel" stuck and that things just aren't improving or really going to improve, and that attitude is one of the biggest obstacles to progress. (I once saw someone wearing a shirt that said, "The man who thinks he can't and the man who thinks he can, both are right..." I don't remember the rest of it, but that part was profound enough to stick with me.) One of the biggest obstacles I think I face personally is feeling largely disorganized. So I need to find a way to start doing that. Yet I feel frustrated also because I feel like sometimes my family just doesn't get it. I can't do this without them, and it doesn't exactly feel like they are helping or even trying to work with me (more in terms of household organization than personal weight management, but I think if I felt things were better there I could focus on improving my diet/ exercise habits).
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147.0 lb
Lost so far: 25.0 lb.
Still to go: 17.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 2.0 lb a week
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