Finally had the courage to get on the scale -- 1 lb up… but after Thanksgiving & my sugar defeat last weekend, I know it could have been much worse. Plus, its only a number on the scale… not who I am, not a measure of how I live my life or the journey I'm on.
TGIF -- I wish I could write that & mean it, but the weekends are such an eating struggle for me. I almost had an episode last night, but luckily dodged that bullet. I had Manhattan Clam Chowder for dinner & had purchased pumpkin ravioli with squash, pecans & arugula for DH from Whole Foods. He opted for leftovers instead. We rarely eat together on weeknights as I like to eat around 6 & he often doesn't get home until 8ish. He'd had a bad day at work (which he told me about instead of taking it out on me ;) -- real progress for us!) & had more work to do once he was home. So, after he ate, he went upstairs to his office in our bedroom & I stayed down watching 'The Sound of Music" live with Carrie Underwood. But, his dinner was calling to me. In hindsight, it was what I truly wanted to eat (in the Eat What You Love way). While I couldn't have the pasta because of the gluten, when I got up to let my doggie out, I tasted the squash & pecans which led to a few of DH's yogurt covered raisins which also were calling. But having just read a post on the EWYL - Am I Hungry Facebook page about what overeating feels like, and knowing I truly wasn't food hungry, I somehow, for once, found a way to take a pause (that one that I know I should always take when I want to eat and am not truly hungry for food, but rarely can find). I did some deep breathing, went back to my doggie & show, and when the craving continued, went to bed to finish the show there. So, I'm chalking it up as another small step in the mindful eating direction!
I'm off to a tennis match midday, and book work and/or Christmas prep before and after. But, before I go I'll pray-
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.
And, for this one day & each of its one meals, moments, bites & emotions, I'll pray, breathe, log, journal & express my way. I'm so very grateful for each of amazing you, my family & IRL friends, mindful eating, and having the health & wealth to live this life I love! xoxox
P.S. Also, had to share from the Am I Hungry Facebook page, the following recipes… you know I'm not a cook, so of course, instead they are recipes for overeating & instinctive eating! Enjoy!
Recipe for Overeating
Ingredients:Whole pizza 1 batch, bag, box, or large plate of food 2 tablespoons of deprivation 1 heaping teaspoon of guilt Sprinkle of shame Optional: fatigue, stress, resentment, loneliness, boredom
Directions:
Run yourself down physically by not sleeping, exercising, eating when you’re hungry, or consuming nutritious foods. Alternatively, wear yourself out by working too hard, being all things to all people, and trying to make everything perfect. Place emotions on medium-high. Cover and simmer; do not allow steam to escape. When you crave something you love, remind yourself that it's bad, fattening, or high in carbs. When your cravings grow stronger, tell yourself that you're bad for wanting bad food. Wait until an influential person such as your grandmother or co-worker insists you eat that food anyway to please them. Alternatively, sneak the food when no one is watching. Sit down in front of the T.V. or choose another activity to distract yourself while you eat. Before eating, garnish the food with guilt. If it’s still enjoyable, stir in some shame to ensure that the food is completely ruined. Eat as quickly as possible to avoid tasting or enjoying the food. You're done when you feel sick and uncomfortable. Repeat steps 1-9 until can't stand it anymore. Try the Recipe for Instinctive Eating.
Recipe for Instinctive Eating
Ingredients:Slice of pizza 1 or 2 servings of food you love 2 tablespoons of intention 1 heaping teaspoon of attention Sprinkle of trust Optional: pleasure, enjoyment, celebration, tradition
Directions:
Care for yourself physically by getting adequate sleep, exercise, and nutrition. Create a self-care buffer zone by regularly nurturing your body, mind, heart, and spirit. When you’re hungry, consider what you want, what you need, and what you have to eat before choosing food. Decide how you want to feel when you're finished eating; serve yourself accordingly (or adjust the portion if someone else served you). When the food you crave isn’t particularly healthful, omit all guilt and shame. Remind yourself that all foods fit when you practice balance, variety, and moderation. Sit down to eat and minimize distractions. Savor the appearance, aromas, textures, and flavors as you eat. Eat slowly and mindfully for maximal enjoyment from every bite. Stop when you feel content and energetic. Repeat steps 1-9 for the remainder of your life.
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123.0 lb
Lost so far: 5.0 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 06 December 2013:
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1352 kcal
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Fat: 63.20g | Prot: 82.52g | Carb: 144.60g.
Breakfast: Spectrum Organic Virgin Coconut Oil, Qdoba Mexican Grill Grilled Vegetables, Egg White, Egg, Daiya Mozzarella Style Shreds. Lunch: Boston Market Seasonal Fresh Fruit Salad, Whole Foods Market Avocado Vinaigrette Dressing, Vlasic Roasted Red Peppers, Good Neighbors Super Food Quinoa Salad, Trader Joe's Healthy 8 Chopped Veggie Mix, Mixed Salad Greens. Dinner: Endangered Species Chocolate Extreme Dark Chocolate 88%, The Chia Co Chia Pod Blueberry, Stew Leonard's Manhattan Clam Chowder, Happy Harvest Mixed Vegetables. Snacks/Other: Spectrum Organic Virgin Coconut Oil, Best Yet Mixed Berries, Green Valley Organics Lactose Free Plain Yogurt. more...
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1974 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 14 hours and 30 minutes, Tennis - 1 hour and 30 minutes. more...
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gaining 0.7 lb a week
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