I'm mad. I'm pure angry. Ever since before my eyes opened this morning I was ready to spit fire. My poor kids, but they were so loud. Not that it should surprise me, they're young they need fun. But today is just bad. Maybe it's because I'm about to finish my period which tells me that again I'm not pregnant. Maybe it's because no matter how annoyingly good I eat and hate it or no matter how much I exercise, I'm still fat.
Yesterday I was full dressed up. Shaved legs, even wore lipstick, and I'm not a make up girl. Brought out the earrings even. I needed to feel pretty because I sure as anything do not. I don't even know what to do anymore. I was getting skinny last spring, started the whole allergy business gained tons of weight from that medicine and woke up one day to find 25 unwanted pounds. Joined the Y started exercising all the frickin' time and eating absolutely perfectly. NO results. Not one. Just anger.
Oh wait, I hear the preschooler yelling. Apparently I forgot to put a diaper on the toddler. Fabulous. Idiot mom.
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188.0 lb
Lost so far: 2.0 lb.
Still to go: 63.0 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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losing 0.3 lb a week
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