CrystalJo74's Journal, 21 May 2023

Hello FS family ~

As you can see by my weight history (that I updated this morning)...I'm in a heap of trouble here. Had to dig out my yoga pants even (sigh).🤦🏻‍♀️

My arthritis is in a flare, making movement difficult and painful (back to my walker for now). I've switched biologics back to Enbrel but I haven't had enough weeks of it, to have it kick in yet. Getting blood work done again next week, including thyroid levels, as I suspect it may be out of whack. Had my thyroid removed some years ago, but don't have an endocrinologist currently, and my meds have not been adjusted at all.

So, some medical issues, some new stressors with feeling anxious about out-of-state company coming for a visit in a few weeks. I want the house and the yard to be in tip-top shape but I lack the strength and/or enthusiasm to get it done. I'm feeling really quite overwhelmed by it all.

On the one hand - I really miss my 'thigh-gap' and on the other - it's nice to have some boobs back🤣

I can't do this alone.......the reason I was successful before here on FS, is because I kept checking in here, sharing helpful tidbits re food & fitness choices and feeling part of a 'community'. Of course, not everyone agreed with the things I shared and I actually became afraid that I would steer someone wrong and they would somehow be harmed by my posts. I know I'm not qualified to give medical advice, so I try to be careful.

This post for today is very very basic, common sense stuff....that I have NOT been doing consistently for months now. I'm praying that I can incorporate these back into my daily routine...one day at a time.

I've missed you guys.💙💙💙 This can be such a welcoming/safe place to share and to learn. Honestly, the food pictures trigger me to eat (these days) but hopefully I will soon have my sense of purpose back and some level of self-control!

This turned into an essay! Thanks for listening and a special thank-you to those who sent private messages to check in on me. 🤗

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You can do anything you put your mind to CJo 👍💪 
21 May 23 by member: sk.17
Happy to hear from you. Stick around. You are welcome here, always. Besides, I miss seeing your pretty bowls!! 🥰🥰 
21 May 23 by member: wifey9707
💙sk.17> So, just how DOES one go about putting their mind to something? I know what has worked for me and countless others to lose weight, but the determination is what's lacking! I just want to EAT EAT EAT! 
21 May 23 by member: CrystalJo74
💙wifey> How perfectly lovely to hear from you! I had to chuckle about the dishes, cuz it's been a good long while since I bought one😊 Thanks for the incentive🌷 
21 May 23 by member: CrystalJo74
I am so sorry, I'm going to be a pain in the butt. I can't help myself. Here goes: None of these pictures above are helpful. They're like somebody who's addicted to cigarettes trying to 'cut down', without understanding that they are addicted. - trying to use willpower to control a biological imperative just doesn't work! It's just a giant mindfuck. Looking at your diet calendar, you're eating almost no fat, not enough protein, and not even a huge amount of carbs. You look about my age so I would recommend increasing your fat and protein content. Protein to maybe a goal of 75g a day, and fat to maybe a goal of 100g a day. Calories at least 1200 a day. You're starving and crashing. Binge-crash cycle. It's not your fault, your neocortex is trying to override your basal ganglia. or something. Your human brain is trying to override your reptilian brain. Reptilian brain says 'eat! live! not die!' your rational mind says 'oh if we eat little we will shrink.' I think I got the best out of my own life when I realised that my cerebral cortex didn't know sh!t. It though it was the shiz. it isn't. If you don't put your body in a position to fight you to the death, you don't need self control. You need compassion! "Be in control and learn to say no"? No! Say yes to the best foods. Say yes to the amazing healthy nutrient filled foods. And then let the rest of it fall where it may. The pictures are old 'diet advice' and they're repressive and misery-inducing. I am the one on here who will probably get a caning for saying what I say... you just feed your body some fat. 20g a day is nothing like enough for satiety or energy. :) Anyway take care, jmho. I see your thyroid problem and I am not trying to ignore it. I've been on keto for a while now, and the most important thing I have discovered about it is the lack of interest in/obsession with junk food. It's no longer food to me. I don't really see it (except saturday night. don't look at my saturday night food diary. :D ) Eating fat for the first time in my life has been an amazing experience. Our bodies want it, and it's a long-burning useful easily accessed fuel. Even if I don't lose an ounce I'm staying on it because it's helping my health so much. :)  
21 May 23 by member: Bubbles McBubble
lol that beagle one and chewing. i have a beagle, they love to chew but food is just about swallowed whole. lol 
21 May 23 by member: DAZEY_iz_Well
Great to see you back with us! Sorry for the pain you're going through. Loved the honesty of your update. Hope you will use the same with the company that's coming. Those who matter don't mind a less than perfect house and yard. Please, please, please... your health and well-being first, OK? Also, I love the info you post. I choose what I can use! :) 
21 May 23 by member: losingtowin1
Followed and 💚Supported :) I want to be with you your whole journey! You got this gurl!!! 
21 May 23 by member: bigbeautifulme
💙Bubbles> I don't know enough about the Keto WOE to feel comfortable with it. I know that by using CICO I was quite successful over the last few years, until I quit smoking in December. Congratulations that Keto has proven to be so helpful/healthy for you. I will consider adding more fat/protein while still keeping the overall calorie count down. G'day to you😎 
21 May 23 by member: CrystalJo74
💙Dazey> Funny! "Food is just about swallowed whole" sounds a lot like my way too!😂 
21 May 23 by member: CrystalJo74
💙losingtowin1> It's not easy fessing up to a complete flip-flop of everything I've been advocating since 2021! I think I was so incredibly strict with myself for such a long time...that once I let a few weeks go by without logging, counting cals or macros, I just totally lost my focus and my mindset. Oh well🤷🏻‍♀️ I'm thankful for this community and for family that loves me no matter what!🌼 
21 May 23 by member: CrystalJo74
💙Blubbery_Tater> Nice to meet you! I started following you too😊🙋‍♀️ 
21 May 23 by member: CrystalJo74
Aw thank you! I am starting my journey tomorrow, so I am happy I have some people to go through it with! 💖 Very nice to meet you too :) 
21 May 23 by member: bigbeautifulme
If you need to encourage yourself, why not try something I've been doing? I keep a "little wins sheet" to help with mindfulness, being gentle on yourself, and celebrating the little things you do everyday. I find it REALLY helps in the mental health sector and I feel a lot less stressed when I keep up on it. It's not easy (hell, my weight has been stubborn for YEARS), but with the right support... you can do whatever you set your mind to. 🫂 
21 May 23 by member: Cyrus Mourningstar
I'm glad your back Crystaljo74 please do what works for you.  
21 May 23 by member: buenitabishop
Glad you are back! I have missed your helpful charts, quotes, and posts! I used the info that pertained to me and my WOE but enjoyed all of it. Please don't stop posting. We become friends with the people here on FS that we feel connected to and you and I connected thru Letty. ( who I miss btw!) I will always support you as you have done with me! Hope all the pain and stuff you are going through gets better soon. You know what needs to be done and I'll. support you 100%!!!!💜 
21 May 23 by member: Diana 1234
Hey Crystaljo, thanks for not batting me straight out of the park! Keto is not about increasing your calorie intake per se - but rather burning more hardwood and less pine on the energy fire. (a convenient lie that helps explain the truth?) But the days you log, your average calories a day are 870 cals a day. That's hecka low. VLCD diets are horriffic to try and keep to, so they're a guaranteed burnout cycle. On here I've obeyed the instruction regarding how much I currently weigh, and how much I want to lose; but I have adjusted the macros to 75-20-5 for fat-protein-carbs. That's an intense keto level, probably not for you unless you're into it, I'm doing it because I'm diabetic and now I've discovered how much less hungry/strung out I am, I don't want to go back to high carb/low fat. Also I think I get more gristle type ingredients, my joints are feeling better... that could be the weight loss. but on low fat, every morning on vlcd I would wake up, slightly more screwed up than the last until I'd lose it and eat all of the food. Nowadays I don't have that problem the same. I have had some dinners out in the last week, but my daily habits are now low carb, and I don't have any need to do anything else. The urgency has gone, the heat has gone out of dieting for me. All I need to do now is probably stop weighing myself so neurotically as I go up and down like a yoyo all week long... 
21 May 23 by member: Bubbles McBubble
Not sure CJo but I know I had to retrain myself to eat more slowly and plate less food on my plate more beautifully in order to curb my mindless eating. I literally have no desired to stuff my face anymore but it took some doing. You‘ve been successful here before so perhaps reflecting on what worked in the past ( with tweaks perhaps ) could help. In any case, I‘m wishing that you achieve your goals in the long run 💙 
21 May 23 by member: sk.17
Hey Crystal. Happy to see you here but sorry you’ve been having a tough time. Quitting smoking is such a huge important thing! Please give yourself enough credit for that. Also, I’m not sure how any of us with thyroid issues are supposed to compensate. If only I had some answers. I love reading your posts and helpful research but please don’t feel like you have to do it. Focus on whatever you need to do ~ for yourself. ❤️ 
21 May 23 by member: RhumbaGirl
Welcome back CJo! You already know FS is a fun ride; enjoy and good luck! 
22 May 23 by member: Nana2nine

     
 

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