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Oh feeling so so FAT. And deserving it. Ate a whole family sized apple pie tonight. Funnily enough wasn't interested in my plain salad for dinner. Ate caramel corn for lunch/arvo tea. No exercise for like forever. Binged on all the choc chip cookies left in the house last night and the milk. Valium binge. Couldn't remember it except for the missing food and the weight that had jumped from 58.9 to 60.5 overnight. Fuck hey. That's a he'll of a binge. I'm nervous as fuck about the BoS lady coming tomorrow and have been bingeing like mad. I also think its PMS cos I've been vicious in temper and craving chocolate. Far out though to think ten days ago I was 57.7? What the hell? So shitted with myself. I have two weeks til I see Ann (endo) again and I think she'll weigh me - I've got to get this off. Maybe I'll get some fat blisters or something. Have to use a few of the old tricks. I'm already using lax again but I hate using them they make me feel so I'll. I'd rather just restrict. Maybe I could ask Ki to get me some duromine but doubt she would cos of the whole heart issue, too freaked I'll pike on her. I reckon it's ok as long as I'm on the inderal as well. Just need to shift this weight. It's driving me insane.
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133.4 lb
Lost so far: 84.4 lb.
Still to go: 16.5 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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gaining 2.3 lb a week
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