tired2bfat's Journal, 09 September 2011

Funny how things can go so well for several months and then just fall apart. Since Novembre 2010, I haven't fell the wagon. This week, I did overeat, I did eat poorly but really, it wasn't that crazy... my scale shows that I gained 4 lbs in 5 days... I didn't eat 4 lbs worth of food... no way... I don't understand.

I'm literraly stressed out this week. I got some family drama that is very hard to handle. I haven't feel so preoccupied and sad and frustrated for years... On top of dealing with that, I gotta deal with the weight gain and make sure that it doesn't go out of hand.

I refuse to let this go. I fought way too hard to get where I am. The rest of the week will go better... I won't let my family drama destroy what I accomplish. I have to remind myself why I did this...

Thanks to Fat Secret because I wrote them down :) Here they are:

1. I wanna live a long and healthy life. I don't want to suffer from heart disease, diabetes, cancers, or other diseases often linked to obesity.

2. I don't want to be the fat girl in the room anymore.

3. I wanna be fit so that I can do sports and other activities that require a good physical level.

4. I wanna look good in fashionable clothes.

5. I don't want my skin to rub anymore around my legs and I don't wanna sweat between my fat rolls (nasty I know!)

6. I don't wanna feel uncomfortable when I sit in an airplane and my legs and arms touch the person next to me cause I'm too fat.

7. I don't wanna be judged by people; I don't want people to talk about me in my back and say how I used to look thin and now I'm fat.

8. I want to be happy. I want to like the way I look and be proud of myself for achieving my goal.

9. I wanna do this right. I don't want to yo-yo diet anymore. I wanna lose the damn weight and keep it off.

10. I heard once that thin people tend to have better career advancement options because their boss think they represent the organization better (image wise); So I think that would just be a big PLUS!

149.0 lb Lost so far: 44.0 lb.    Still to go: 29.0 lb.    Diet followed poorly.

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1643 kcal

Fat: 33.67g | Prot: 55.03g | Carb: 270.20g.   Breakfast: corn, watermelon. Lunch: honey, liberty yogourt, squash, tofu. Dinner: wine, almond milk, bouillon, olive oil, leeks. Snacks/Other: almond milk, gogo quinoa, watermelon. more...