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Am sure ill be over the magical 50 tomorrow, but ?? not sure I care or it matters. I've been taking an iron supp for a week cos my levels are below low... Anyway major backlog and major ouchies. Got one squeezed out yesterday, and another after much persuasion this afternoon... But oh the pain, nausea, general feeling like crap, and "burnt bum" after effects. :-( so not happy. Yes I know I should be thrilled all this should be fuelling an ED'd way to live and a great promoter for not eating (who wants to when you feel like vomiting and it comes out as acid?) but fuck it, it's no way to live, I feel not so much "un attractive" but certainly "un sensual" and "unwomanly" ... And maybe most of all... I feel like a kid. I feel young. I look young. And yes, that bugs me. This is limbo, and I want life. Can I surrender daily weigh ins? I suspect not until the all important Boxing Day bash, the ultimate marker of my year, has past... ;-)
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109.8 lb
Lost so far: 108.0 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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gaining 6.2 lb a week
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