bikinihopeful's Journal, 20 June 2008

It has been a long time, I feel overwhelmed and hopeless. I have no words left like "this time is the time", being heavy is beyond frustrating and caring about it is the worst. I mean really, is it worth all this focus, I have been obsessed with weight since I was 10. that is 31 years of judging myself by my jiggly thighs and who else is (if anyone) is bigger in the room. And I get it, not only are there people who weigh more who might think I am a twit 'cause they would be happy to "only" be 30 pounds overweight, and there are way bigger tragedies than being heavy, I am so sick of it I could scream!

so, can I say that?

177.0 lb Lost so far: 2.0 lb.    Still to go: 32.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.
losing 0.2 lb a week

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Yes. You can say that. We've all been there. My mom once told me that what you think about the most in a day is what is most important to you. That shocked me because I realised that I was thinking about my weight more than anything... which really meant I was spending most of the day thinking about me instead of others (or important matters. Shift your focus. It's hard. The days I don't think about my weight are the ones I'm having the most fun or working so hard, I don't have a chance. I keep saying that losing weight is simple... but it's not easy. The great thing about this site is that we can admit these feelings and hurdles to each other in a way that we probably can't to friends and family. Keep going. We've all been there (I was there all last week), 
20 Jun 08 by member: changeup
Hell yes! Agree with changeup and can add that I am a frequent flyer to this unhappy mindset of double self judgment. Scream or do whatever you can to lighten the load. Sometimes acknowledging it is enough to keep moving forward.  
20 Jun 08 by member: Densible

     
 

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