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Amazing how much food has been so tightly intertwined with emotions more than physically. I am really discovering that now as I stop myself so often from doing something that is emotional driven in regards to food.
I still have a major sweet tooth that I am not ready to fully give up - my one treat a day vice. But that's still much much better than it used to be. It's amazing too how now I have to stop myself -- certain things like going to the movies, going to certain stores trigger a habit. Or if something good really happens or something really bad happens -- all trigger an emotional eating response.
I am very proud of myself though for not falling into my own mind trap so far. Here are some examples:
1. We planned to go to the movies. My first reaction was "What kind of candy will I get, and will we get chips with cheese" My emotions were of YAY!! CANDY!!. But then right away, I caught myself, and sarcastically thought to myself "Yay...staying fat!" So, I decided to plan ahead and choose very carefully. I also made sure to eat a healthier meal before so I felt full going in. This theater had the options of choosing loose candy pieces from bins. I just chose a very small amount of different options, that may have equaled up to about one normal size candy bar. I then got some water, added my tea bag in, and just slowly enjoyed my little bag of candy. Could it have been carrots instead? Yes, and I will add that next time, but to fully deprive myself right now would really set me up for failure.
2. We went to a particular store that also happens to sell one of my favorite sweets. Not much in the way of fat, but lots of sugar which of course turns into fat. My first reaction was to grab the box that I wanted. And I quickly caught myself, and just forced myself out of that isle and redirected my thoughts. I didn't linger to give myself time to weaken. I made it!
3. Last week there was an especially bad day, and an especially good day. In those times, I thought of either soothing my sorrow or celebrating my good day --- both with food. I caught this and again asked myself --- So you want to make yourself feel better by gaining weight? And "So you are going to celebrate by sabotaging all your hard work? When I caught myself and faced the reality of what I was about to do, I stopped myself.
I am so very proud of my efforts, and what I have done so far in mentally trying to disable my habits.
I also know how vulnerable I am to my food/sweets addiction and I have to really just plan things out and catch myself.
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218.4 lb
Lost so far: 6.6 lb.
Still to go: 68.4 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 11 October 2012:
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1549 kcal
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Fat: 49.64g | Prot: 88.88g | Carb: 188.62g.
Breakfast: Organic Strawberries, Apples. Lunch: Pickles, 6" Roast Beef. Dinner: Ground Turkey, Creamy Poppyseed Dressing, Baby Spinach, Brown Rice Noodles, Traditional Marinara Sauce. Snacks/Other: Chunk Light Tuna in Water, Healthy Whole Grain Bread, le lait 29% cocao milk chocolate, Almonds. more...
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2752 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Deleting other options to use BB calcs - 8 hours, BodyBugg Total Calories Burned for the DAY - 16 hours. more...
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losing 0.9 lb a week
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