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Weighed in before Dubbo trip yesterday morning. So it'll be a long week. And a couple of things sticking in my head tonight. Firstly we had to stop specifically bc the girls were hungry today, & Diana commented, not thinking, that she and Aaron don't eat in the day which of course set us right off. Furthermore she was "keeping the peace" later with Fi and it just sounds shit that she had to stop specifically bc the girls were hungry... And I almost feel ? Guilty? Embarrassed? that they were? Wtf is that? And I want no part of it. Everything in me just goes "you know what? You can take your eating healthy shit and shove it." Especially since later we were all hanging and AB says "hey live your tummy is hanging out" cos my fucking fat gut was hanging over Di's trackies. Guess I'm not the same size as her after all. Yeah and she thought I was. Pft. She didn't realise she was dating a fat fuck. She'll learn. I'm just grossed out. Even her son realises how disgusting I am. I just want to curl up and not eat until I'm bones. I get that it's only a couple of kilos between now Nd my PB, but god it feels huge. I feel so big and round and disgusting and painfully yuk. How does anyone love this?
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121.9 lb
Lost so far: 95.9 lb.
Still to go: 5.1 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 0.9 lb a week
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