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OMG I just converted kilos to pounds. Mistake. I have been living in France so long that it's easy to kid yourself about your weight. In the States I weighed 250 pounds which is a ton but here well that's only 113 kilos which sounds soooo much lighter.
Imagine my shock when I realize that even after a month of a very acceptable weight loss I still weigh more than I have ever weighed in my life.
I feel ridiculous having this love/hate relationship with my scale. Why should a number dictate if I am a good person? a valuable person? a person worth knowing? I'm not sure but it does. I see comment after comment on sites about "those fat people" out of control, destroying the health system in America and just generally disgusting to look at and I agree with them. I hate myself for it but I agree with them. I know they're wrong but it doesn't matter.
I am somewhere lost inside of 254.85438 pounds and I don't know how to get out.
Diet Calendar Entries for 27 October 2017:
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565 kcal
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Fat: 22.12g | Prot: 37.21g | Carb: 57.59g.
Breakfast: 365 Greek Yogurt Plain, Grape Juice, Unsalted Butter Stick, Baguette, Coffee with Milk. Lunch: Goat Cheese, Broccoli, Salmon. Dinner: Broccoli. Snacks/Other: Applesauce Unsweetened. more...
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2937 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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