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I am having trouble keeping things recorded. The numbers make me nervous to watch, when they go up, but then again you can see what your doing wrong. I get very, very confused and mixed up with all the diets out there. I just want something sensible to do, of course you should not eat too much sugar, too much starch, too much of the wrong fats is not good either. I still have not learned how to journal on this site, and perhaps it is a lot easier than I think. Sometimes we make things too big in our minds and get overwhelmed, that is a natural process, our bodies need enough food so they just trying to survive and keep us in "survival mode". My problem is a combination of things but I get scared to eat, and especially the right things as well, but when I do not eat enough I do get up at night and make up for it kind of. I always think I have eaten enough when I go to bed. Though I am a stay at home mom, my family keeps me busy, and it is so hard to make myself and keep myself a priority. Being at home is a lot more harder than people think, especially when your compulsive behavior starts there. I am just trying first to make peace with myself and my spirit and hope the rest will slowly follow. I do realize that I need to make steps to get there. It is also hard to talk and to encourage your kids. I do worry a lot and for my kids, also for one of my twins who is still very overweight, or obese, by the medical profession. I hate when they use that work, that word is not encouraging at all. My problems personally started from all the crash dieting I did pre-teen, and teen, so I resent that work a lot cause a large part of my life I had spent it starving to death. Funny, how some so called professionals really do not know how to run their professions by learning each individual, working with them, and encouraging them correctly. I am happy for this site and just need to think that I am worth doing this and to really start believing in my self. I hope all of you can get encouraged also and know you can do this! Also I can't seem to be able to punch in a half pound loss, anyway it does not matter since I am fluctuating so, so much, that is why I don't record it and leave it alone. Just need to work at it and do something sensible, without starving, crashing, or depriving. Quick fixes don't work for a lifetime, I should know I messed my thyroid glad up real good. Many times I think I should of not still been alive, so try to re-think with food it is a nourishment that will give you fuel just put the right kind of the right amount in it. We treat our vehicles better than we do our bodies, and spirits.
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