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From July 9th, 2009
Today is first day of the next phase of my life.
I've been overweight for much of my life, and while I've always known I need to lose weight, I never really made it a priority. Heck, I never even made it a option. Maybe I'll wake up some morning and be thinner and fit, right? Right.
I've spent so many nights lying in bed telling myself that I am fat and need to lose weight and get more exercise. I'll start tomorrow, I say, as if telling myself for the 200th time is going to make any more difference than the last 199 times. I tell myself that the latte I'm drinking isn't that bad for me, since it's got skim milk. That the enormous plate of pasta with olive oil and butter isn't bad because I didn't eat much of anything else all day. That because I parked at the far side of the parking lot today means I did exercise. I have lied and lied and lied to myself so much that I had convinced myself that I'm really trying and that maybe being this overweight isn't all THAT bad. But it is all that bad.
I am 33 years old, am 5'5 and weigh 235 lbs. I don't eat well. I don't exercise. I am depressed a good deal of the time and three days ago, my husband of 7 years, who I have been with since I was a teenager, told me that he slept with his old high school girlfriend one month ago after they reconnected on Facebook.
It's time I do something to change my life. I have to. "Things fall apart. The center cannot hold."
This is the first day of the next phase of my life.
Diet Calendar Entries for 14 July 2009:
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1052 kcal
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Fat: 19.25g | Prot: 55.48g | Carb: 163.54g.
Breakfast: coffee. Lunch: Strawberry Nonfat Yogurt, Lean Cuisine Baked Chicken. Dinner: Lemongrass Chicken with White Rice, Thai Cantaloupe Salad. Snacks/Other: Starbucks iced coffee, Starbucks iced coffee. more...
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3035 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 10 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 7 hours and 50 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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