Multiplicity1's Journal, 25 April 2010

Watched Ruby again. She is still gaining weight and seems totally mystified as to how it could happen as if it has nothing to do with what she is putting in her mouth. I overate my strawberries yesterday. I was going to have 1/2c. but I ended up eating about 3/4 c. I don't really know how much I ate because I did not measure my fruit like I was supposed to. Just like Ruby I acted like I had nothing to do with the food I was putting in my mouth. It is so easy to slip back into the addiction. On one scene in Ruby her counselor was confronting her friends about being enablers of Ruby calling ahead to see if restaurants had large chairs for Ruby to sit in so she didn't have to ask the restaurant herself. I wondered who my enablers were and I thought about how my husband always gives in when I complain I am too tired to walk the last few minutes of my 45 minute walks. He always gives in when I want to go eat out. But he also helps cook my new foods and encourages me to stay on Atkins. He is however one of my enablers. I am on the other hand 100% responsible for the choices I make in my life whether with food or any other choices.
For today I am 100% on my food plan and making healthy choices. I do admit I only walked 42 minutes instead of 45 today. Today I am a food addict in remission.

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1503 kcal

Fat: 110.26g | Prot: 95.79g | Carb: 45.26g.   Breakfast: Splenda, Baking powder, Cinnamon, Egg, Butter, Flax seeds. Lunch: Cheddar cheese. Dinner: Green peppers, lettuce, Avocado, Pork rinds, Green beans, Tilapia. Snacks/Other: Splenda, Diet coke, Diet Coke, Diet Dr. Pepper, Strawberries, Macadamia nuts. more...

2562 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 42 minutes, Resting - 14 hours and 18 minutes, Sleeping - 9 hours. more...