just.keep.swimming's Journal, 16 January 2012

Yay! It's Monday morning! :) I'm so excited!
I'm not getting a workout in, I decided to have an un-rushed morning on my first day of the new job. Wish me luck. I hope I learn fast.

My date last night went well. I'm glad I went. He's so pretty.... sigh. I thought he was after a rebound date, and maybe he is? But he posted a "Thanks, had a great time, can't wait to see you again" type of message on Facebook to me... that's a very public way to let someone know you like them. Who knows? He said he wants to go out again- I'm going to stay cautiously optimistic (or maybe cautiously pessimistic since this is me after all!) and see if it ever happens.

But seriously, what does a guy like him see in me? That's the part that I don't get. He's two years younger than I am and seriously in shape... I tried to tell him how awful I am. Maybe not a normal first date mentality. Perhaps a little too honest, but I went into it thinking "there's no way he ACTUALLY likes me, I'll make sure of it by telling him the truth about me." Arg- I don't understand boys in social settings.

Ok, that's enough second guessing and obsessing for this morning! :) Although I have to get this out of my system: WORK! YAY! (I'm doing a little dance here.) Haha! Have a great day!

Diet Calendar Entries for 16 January 2012:
889 kcal Fat: 21.16g | Prot: 63.87g | Carb: 128.46g.   Breakfast: Butternut Winter Squash. Lunch: kale, garlic, celery, mango trader Joe's, wasabi, romaine, flax meal, carrots, carrots, cabbage, lump crab. Dinner: carrots, figs, tahini, alfalfa spourts, cabbage, turnip, trader joes wild sockeye smoked salmon, lump crab, butternut winter squash, roasted dried seaweed, cauliflower. Snacks/Other: carrots, sea salt, raw sunflower seeds, organic agave, flax meal, raisins. more...
1723 kcal Activities & Exercise: Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 8 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...


i do exactly know how you feel about yourself. i ususally say the same things as you...like "i don't know what he sees in me" or "he could have every girl in the world. why should he pick me?" i said that the last time on new year's...after the big party. i said to a guy who was talking to me "i love to eat but look at me, this is no secret" then he looked at me and he said, astonished: "i don't know what you mean. you look gorgeous." so, have a little more faith in yourself and say something nice to yourself every day...it will help you accept who you are :) 
16 Jan 12 by member: joelae
Don't doubt yourself go for the guy! I made that mistake once but luckily got a second chance. He was very handsome and at the time I weighed 180!! I was like what the heck would he want with me? He would text and call and try to hang out and I just ignored him thinking he was after one thing, lol. Fast forward a year and I found him on myspace, we went on a date, and now we're engaged! Go for it, you might not see it yet but you will, you deserve it! :) 
16 Jan 12 by member: Jillian04
It's very easy for a woman to doubt herself... but, I'm finding that by staying focused on me instead of what I think others want me to be, I;m liking myself more and more.. And your a good looking person :) don't doubt yourself :) Congratulations on the new job!!!! 
16 Jan 12 by member: jesid
First of all, congratulations on your new job. Although life is short, we must not rush through it or we will miss the small pleasures hidden. Have confidence in yourself. You may not see what is so special about yourself but he does and should he decide to court you, why not? Just go ahead. It's the little risks in life that makes life so exciting! I wish I can say the same in my love life but so far, there's no Mr. Right yet. But if I were you, I will definitely go for it.  
16 Jan 12 by member: lifeisamirage
Thanks everyone! I always think I like myself just fine until something like this happens. lol.  
16 Jan 12 by member: just.keep.swimming


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