teskandar's Journal, 29 December 2012

Hello everyone! I have been back on since Dec 27, some of you may have noticed my comments, but have not written a journal entry since I took two days off for Christmas. I've been putting it off because I think it might turn out to be long and all over the place. So let me say sorry in advance for the twists and turns. Hope you don't get dizzy!
It was a wonderful Christmas with my husband and 5 kids. I say kids because they are my babies, but their ages range from 27-19. I felt very lucky to have them all home for a day. We ate roast beef, mashed potatoes, steamed vegetables, green beans and radishes and onions, and toasted with sparkling cider (we aren't really drinkers). It was a very nice and relaxing day. For dessert I made chocolate walnut fudge, peanut butter fudge, rice krispie treats and a blueberry cheesecake. My girls made frosted sugar cookies which I think I mentioned are my favorite cookie. Fortunately they buried most of them in sprinkles which I hate so I didn't eat as many as I might have. But believe me I ate my share of treats.
Here's the thing I particularly wanted to mention. After two days of eating whatever I wanted, I didn't feel very good. I was bloated. I had a headache. I was tired. I was grumpy. My stomach hurt. So being such a sharp thinker (HA!) I deduced that overeating the stuff that I used to regularly eat now makes me feel ill. My body is telling me it no longer likes too many treats and overeating. So when is my head going to get a clue? Even when I felt lousy I was still tempted by all the goodies still left from the Holiday. Really? My capacity for self destruction is a bit frightening. I made myself weigh Thursday morning (my regular day) and found that of course I had gained another pound. No big surprise. On a better note, I have kept up with my walks nearly every day. They are becoming a habit (Bella?) which I am very happy about because exercise was a four letter word to me. ;)
So I am trying to get used to the idea that eating the way I used to eat now makes me feel lousy. I could more easily accept this if the scale would make some progress. I know, I know, just keep going and ignore the numbers as long as I feel progress in other ways like loose clothes and lots more energy and improved blood pressure readings. But I am pretty sure you all know what I mean when I say I am getting obsessed with those scale numbers GOING DOWN. I need to see that or emotionally I feel stuck and defeated. I just can't help it. What to do.
One more thing I wanted to share about my time away was that from noon Thursday to 4 pm Friday we had no running water in our house! You see, my husband fancies himself a plumber (he is an engineer) and so thought with the help of our two sons could fix a broken faucet outside the house. It turned into a nightmare involving about 12 trips to Home Depot and no water for a day and a half! We didn't resort to restaurant food (a miracle) but didn't eat any vegetables because we couldn't wash them. I also avoided anything fibrous for the obvious reason of no flushing toilets (sorry). It was pretty awful but reminded me how much I take basic amenities like running water and electricity for granted. I have never been so happy to hear water running through a faucet!
So Buddies and all, that is what has been happening and what I have learned the last few days. I wish you all good health and pounds lost. Much love. xoxo Teri

Diet Calendar Entries for 29 December 2012:
1553 kcal Fat: 81.46g | Prot: 75.33g | Carb: 146.43g.   Breakfast: Dark Chocolate Dreams Peanut Butter, Oat Bran Hot Cereal, silk light soy milk, frozen organic blueberries. Lunch: trader joe's soy cheese, avocado, grape tomatoes, trader joe's mini rye crisps, fresh orange grapefruit juice. Dinner: beans and rice, mahi mahi, sauteed onions, canola oil. Snacks/Other: Smokehouse Almonds, silk light soy milk, Heavenly Crisp Candy Bar - Peanut Butter. more...
3104 kcal Activities & Exercise: Standing - 4 hours, Sitting - 4 hours and 40 minutes, Shopping - 2 hours, Housework - 1 hour and 30 minutes, Desk Work - 2 hours, Resting - 1 hour and 50 minutes, Sleeping - 7 hours and 5 minutes, Stretching (yoga) - 10 minutes, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 45 minutes. more...
on diet TLC / DASH  


I'm glad you had a wonderful Christmas with your family. I think most of us struggle with some form of food addiction. When I overeat I feel the same way but still continue eating.  
29 Dec 12 by member: fatoldlady
You are not the only one who has had to DIY home plumbing! Same thing happened to me in November. We thought we just had to replace a simple part. I think we were out of water for about 5-7 days. lol. Had to just fit a plug on the pipe and forget! 
29 Dec 12 by member: ErikaPlease
5-7 days! Oh My Goodness that is terrible. DH actually bought one of those plugs as a last resort. Fortunately he didn't have to use it. Thank you! I know FOL. Why we continue to self destruct is something I will never understand about people. I smoked for years even though I knew it would eventually kill me. Finally quit four years ago. It's too bad we can't "quit" food. Would be so much easier.  
29 Dec 12 by member: teskandar
LOVE your journal today! Sounds like a wonderful Christmas and am SO Sorry about the plumbing. Even with mine running I'll admonish myself sometimes that I let it run endelssly - the other day I was so distracted I walked out of the kitchen and was about to sit down when it caught my attention. While I definitely don't want a visit from the Plumbing Fairy to remind me of what is important I do cringe about how 'green' I'm not being. I worked in a landlocked state once that promoted 'stop the drop' to conserve water - always felt guilty for taking it for granted. As for the 'eating things that cause negative reactions in our body' - I truly believe as you pay more and more attention to the 'after effects' you'll start choosing. I'm having to do the same with Soy Sauce & Wasabi. I love sashimi and feel so good eating it but the SS/W afterward (even reduced sodium) - bloated, headache, etc.. Will probably just have to step up the pickled ginger. Why we continue to self destruct? Who knows ~ reminds me of a lyric on one of the songs I listen to while I treadmill - Tell me why are we, so blind to see, That the ones we hurt, are you and me - And I know I'm always pulling out oldies on you so that's Coolio from Gangster's Paradise. But it's true, we rarely ever go out & hurt strangers purposely but do it to ourselves so easily. Let's make a resolution to stop the madness! Raise your right hand and repeat with me: "I will no longer poison my body with foods I know it won't like." Whew... did I mention I'm glad you're back to journaling?  
29 Dec 12 by member: FullaBella
Thanks Bella! I raised my hand! One more thing I wanted to add: OMG! Maybe it is because I am old and cranky, but I am really not interested in peoples bathroom habits or if it is their TOM. Okay, I said it. Now shoot me if you need to, but that has been bugging me since I first started reading journals. :P 
29 Dec 12 by member: teskandar
LOL - .... you're not old but you sound a little cranky hahah. Hey, so am I ~ the only thing I dislike about reading everyone's TOM is that I think it's bringing MINE back ... it's like 'ooo... lemme cycle with the rest of the gals on FS'.... (sorry, that probably just made you crankier) I love reading everyone's journal - guess I'm nosy - no such thing as TMI as long as there aren't graphic illustrations! 
29 Dec 12 by member: FullaBella
LOL ~you two ladies, just made me laugh so hard. I tell my girls (teens), they will still be my babies even when they are fifty. They frown but it is true. So sorry about the plumbing incident. That had to be awful. Good job for not doing take-out or dine-in!  
29 Dec 12 by member: Gatorsgirl
I tpp get frustrated with the scale not going down but have noticed I cannot each as much. I actually want to push the plate away when I am full. I overate today at lunch (Olive Garden) and felt awful and so tired afterward. I am glad my body is catching on. On the flip side, the front of my thighs are killing me today for overdoing some exercise yesterday. Tomorrow will be a challenge but I will at least get on my bike. What a wonderful Christmas to have all your "kids" home. I am very jealous as I don't see that ever happening here. My son lives in New Zealand but I keep hoping since it is summer vacation there. Maybe the other Grandpa will give them a trip. Happy New Year 
29 Dec 12 by member: ranchwoman
Teskandar, you just totally summed up what happened with me over Christmas with my overeating for 3 days straight. I gained 2 pounds in less than a week of bingeing. And I felt terrible - I felt like my stomach was distended, that I had cramps, I felt like my belly was huge, and I won't even go into the TMI of what happens when people like us who are used to salad and skinless chicken eat ham and gravy and fudge. I need to learn that my body actually doesn't like these things - the two pounds I gained were bad, but worse than that was feeling like absolute hell for 3 days and not stopping after the morning after the first day and realizing "Hey, do you really want to feel like this? Is scarfing chocolate and starch and grease really making you feel awesome right now?" Not to mention as a diabetic I cheated on my carbs totally and that is just not good. I have decided the hell with New Year's Resolutions, I am starting NOW, RIGHT NOW. I have put together 4 successful days. If I can make it a week without bingeing, that will be amazing. My dream is to open my diet calendar and see 22 straight days of good eating and exercise. I can't believe you had 5 kids, Tesk. I have had no kids and my body gives me enough trouble, I can't imagine what 5 pregnancies would be like. My hat is off to you for staying with the program. We'll get a hold on this crap together! 
29 Dec 12 by member: kmartdollie
Hi, fabulous journal, really enjoyed it and the observations about our relationship with food. Wonderful Teskander. I am with you on everything you said. A very happy new year to you and your family. Xxx 
31 Dec 12 by member: sazy
I too wrestled horribly with holiday treats & lost the battle. And even though I also know how bad it will make me feel physically, I let the cravings take over & take control. What I learned this time, was that while I enjoyed myself & the time with friends & family, I didn't take the time I needed for myself -- to journal, log, pray, breathe, etc. -- which put a damper on things afterwards. So, I'll add it to the long list of lessons learned... The hard way , of course! Thanks for sharing because we all get healthier with each lesson learned & shared! Happy New Year! 
31 Dec 12 by member: Ruhu
I'm with you on the TOM thing; if I ever have one, I won't journal about it, I promise. However, I will relieve you of that blueberry cheesecake if it will help you feel better the next day. :) 
03 Jan 13 by member: DairyKing
LOL DK :-) 
03 Jan 13 by member: Sk1nnyfuture


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