Yearofhealth2023's Journal, 16 May 2024

Mil’s house went live for sale today. It looks so beautiful, very serene and park like and been fully staged. It looks gorgeous but she would never live like that. She liked her little animal figurines and artwork and every trace of her has been wiped out by the staging. Beginning of the last piece of the end of this part of our life and hubs childhood home. It’s so sad. I know it’s just stuff. Just property but so sad. I told hubs and my child i am not emotionally attached to any home nor rental home I own i am only attached to things with beating hearts and still im so sad about this. I have been bingeing on chocolate chips (only sugar in the house) for last few days and finally threw them all out tonight. I am just realizing as i type this it may be related to this day coming on. Seems right. I deal with stress and anxiety by either bingeing or starving. Omg. Will i ever have a healthy brain when it comes to food. At least im still walking and working out. Went on a 7 mile walk today. Peace to all.

Diet Calendar Entries for 16 May 2024:
1097 kcal Fat: 45.33g | Prot: 83.43g | Carb: 94.86g.   Lunch: Newman's Own Light Balsamic Vinaigrette, Kirkland Signature Canned Chicken, Kirkland Signature Canned Chicken, Goya Black Beans, Earthbound Farm Organic Spring Mix. Dinner: MET-Rx Big 100 - Peanut Butter Pretzel. Snacks/Other: Kirkland Signature Trail Mix, Snack Pack Banana Cream Pie Pudding, Chocolate Fat Bomb. more...
2350 kcal Activities & Exercise: Fitness Training (Workout) - 45 minutes, Walking (brisk) - 4/mph - 2 hours, Resting - 13 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...

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I guess I’m the starving stress team. When I get really stressed, which is rarely. I have no appetite 
16 May 24 by member: Supergainz1
I didn't know they actually staged houses except on HGTV. Does the realtor pay for that? Hope you get an offer faster than me (1 month and nothing) 
16 May 24 by member: Fritzy 22
We hated selling our mothers homes too.  
16 May 24 by member: -MorticiaAddams
Fritzy im sending you a personal message 
16 May 24 by member: Yearofhealth2023
Super ive done it both ways. When my mom passed away i barely ate and lost 30 pounds in first couple months without trying. When my daughters daddy and i broke up i lost 20 pounds i could not afford to lose back then. My relationship with food is so unhealthy. I wish i could balance it and not think about it till i was actually hungry. Im very happy to know you rarely get stressed. It’s not great for your health to live like that. Also congrats on new relationship!!! You deserve an equal partner. 
16 May 24 by member: Yearofhealth2023
Morticia i still own the house my mom lived in but i owned it when she was alive as well. I could completely sell it but my grown child has asked me not to more than once so i dont. But when my grandmas house sold 35 years ago i was and still am so sad about it. 
16 May 24 by member: Yearofhealth2023
I go both ways...if it's stress that's not my own so to speak, I eat...if it's something that is happening to me directly, I starve... I feel for the loss you guys have endured. It's got to be hard and my heart goes out to you.🩷🩷🩷 
16 May 24 by member: Diana 1234
how long was she in the home total?? it must have been a difficult thing to do! im wishing you and your family well thru this !!!  
16 May 24 by member: DAZEY_iz_Well
Dazey she was there a little over 30 years, the last 9 as a widow. Thank you so much for the well wishes i will take them!! How are you feeling?  
16 May 24 by member: Yearofhealth2023
Thank you Diana. Disordered eating. Yuk! 
16 May 24 by member: Yearofhealth2023
So sorry that you are going thru this. I get you when I am stressed I will try to find anything and have resorted to the chocolate chips too becasue there is nothing else sweet in the house. I know that it goes straight to my belly but cannot help it. I end up like you throwing them out. I wish that we could train ourselves to do something good for ourselves but at least you did snap out of it and had a long walk and got rid of them! Kudos to you! 
16 May 24 by member: Redporchlady
7 miles is such a long walk! Good for you! I did a 5000 step walk with Bobby, maybe 2.5 miles and that was plenty. I never have chocolate chips in the house because I would eat them, stress or not. I sometimes have miniature marshmallows in the house for hot chocolate. I've also eaten them out of the bag. Sorry you are so stressed but I can understand 
16 May 24 by member: Fritzy 22
Thanks for asking!! Im feeling well, most of the time. The only pain i have is in my feet, plantar fascitis and heel pain, occasional swollen feet. Otherwise, im still working on systematically decluttering and cleaning regularly. Walking often, but not regularly as i would like to. Im waiting on arch support inserts for my shoes!!  
16 May 24 by member: DAZEY_iz_Well
Something I found interesting today. I was feeling anxious for no apparent reason. I googled natural ways to remedy anxiety. One remedy is dark chocolate. Maybe you unconsciously reached for the chocolate chips not knowing they might help. 
16 May 24 by member: SherryeB
Sherrye-nope. Im a sugar addict. That’s literally the only reason. Dealt with stress with chocolate and other sugary foods since i was young. I know this but knowledge doesnt seem to retrain the fat kid that lives in my brain unfortunately .  
16 May 24 by member: Yearofhealth2023
Fritzy-i had to cut my walk short a couple miles as i had forgotten to put the Invisalign braces back in my mouth and am supposed to wear them 23 hours a day. I was so irritated. Took them out to drink coffee and brush my teeth then forgot to put them back in between getting boys ready to go and setting off the roomba. I was so glad i remembered to set the roomba off, put my earbuds in my ears collected the boys and marched right off into the sunshine. 60 and braces who would have thought. 
16 May 24 by member: Yearofhealth2023
RPL i swear we are sisters from another mister (and mama). I dont even LIKE chocolate chips. Unless they are baked in something. Crazy. No kudos here. I was 139 pounds today. A full pound over my max weight i deemed acceptable and 4 over my goal number. Glad i threw them out tho. 
16 May 24 by member: Yearofhealth2023
Im going to get a roomba or my next house! I sent you another pm a couple hours ago. 
16 May 24 by member: Fritzy 22
LOL - you make me laugh! I know what you are feeling and I am still up on my weight and not recording it today! Uggh - I am struggling but going good at the gym and getting stronger. My husband asked if we got mini chocolate chips because we put them on protein pudding and I said NO!  
17 May 24 by member: Redporchlady
RPL why DID you get mini chocolate chips? Go big or go home😂 
17 May 24 by member: Yearofhealth2023

     
 

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