I'm back, sorta. Things have been very up-in-the-air lately. After two failed refrigerator delivery attempts, we finally got the new one IN and set up on Wednesday (after a full week of chaos). The one I HAD selected was too big to fit into the house (wouldn't fit through doorways). Of course, we didn't learn that until their SECOND attempt to deliver it. The first time, there were a couple of small scratches on it, and the delivery men said they couldn't leave it here because it would void our warranty (false - they tried to RE-deliver it the next day, and found that they not only could not fit the new one IN, but couldn't fit the old one OUT except through a back entryway that had a giant shelving unit in it. So, I had to go and select a DIFFERENT new one, which is a little bit smaller than the one we had, but at least it works. I had to throw away quite a bit of food from having had to take it all out and sit it on the counter THREE times (two of which were unnecessary). Now, we're looking for a stand-alone freezer, since we don't have enough freezer space in the new one. I have a choice of getting a freezer (if we can find one in our price range) or getting a new dishwasher (which broke down about three weeks ago). Since I've been doing pretty well on keeping the dishes washed by hand, I'm leaning toward the freezer.
All that being said, I've not been doing very well with all the stress and up-in-the-air-ness of the whole situation. Back to drinking totally Diet Coke again. Not a sip of water in about a week. Back to eating whatever, whenever.
The only way I will accomplish my goal of losing 60 pounds by June 27th, is if I get a miracle from God. I've come to the conclusion that there is NO WAY I can make it in time, logically and in my own strength. At first, this was upsetting to me, but now I've accepted it. It is what it is, and I feel powerless to change the situation. Right now, I need to focus on just getting back on track and heading in the right direction, however long that takes me to get to where I want to be. I've done it before, and I can do it again, I just don't know (or much care) how long it will take me.
I'm over 300 Notifications BEHIND, and the only way I can deal with that is to just forget about all that I've missed, and start right now to get back on track with keeping up with everyone. Sorry if I missed something important. I'm not ignoring anybody or mad at anybody. Nothing personal at all - just slacking off, and trying to ease back on track in the least overwhelming way I can do it.
Sorry this was so long - that's what happens when I don't check in for a week!
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234.5 lb
Lost so far: 24.5 lb.
Still to go: 84.5 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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losing 0.6 lb a week
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