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29 August 2015
Last nights game was amazing!! We did stuff ourselves though but we also had to walk over 4 miles between where I parked and then inside the stadium itself. We both thoroughly enjoyed it! The food was BBQ chicken, BBQ brisket, veggie burger, baked beans, cole slaw, and watermelon. He was stoked and I thoroughly surprised him!!!
Today I have a ton to do so will be MIA but I thought I'd check in. Have a wonderful Saturday!
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28 August 2015
Today is the big game day - my boyfriend still has no idea what's planned! I have to cut this short but hope you all have a wonderful day! :)
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27 August 2015
Busy day today and busy week for that matter. I apologize for being MIA.
Last weekend my boyfriend and I decided to take a spontaneous mini-vacation to a local country town 2 hours away. We toured a jailhouse built in the 1880s, visited several art museums with art from the locals, and tasted several homemade country cooking including the best beef jerky I've ever had. The atmosphere was relaxing - I REALLY miss the country! I grew up in a small town with one red light that didn't get a dot on the map until a few years ago and now that I live in DFW area it is a bit of a culture shock to me!
Today is the first day of school on campus and the energy is out of this world! I wish every day were like this! Had an awesome conversation with a new student during my walk to my office. I told her she had a great mindset and to keep it with her throughout her journey here. I love inspiring people!
As a side note, yesterday I was informed that while I was on the alternate schedule as an instructor this semester, someone dropped out and now I'm needed to teach a section of the Intro to College class for first time college students. The class is right up my ally and is so exciting for me because this will not only improve freshmen retention rates, I'll get to make a positive impact on people! Yay! I also have a peer leader who will be assisting me through each class. It's a one hour class that meets once a week for 14 weeks. I cannot wait to get started - first day is next Tuesday!
In other news, my boyfriend's knee is doing much better. He had another follow-up appointment and now his doctor has allowed him to walk up stairs but not ladders. In addition, he will be starting physical therapy soon to help improve the tendons around the patella. But overall, he's doing a lot better! In celebration, I actually bought us tickets for tomorrow's Texas Rangers game that includes all you can eat BBQ with drinks (I'll have to budget calories for this!) and special reserved seats for the entire university faculty/staff/students and friends/family. I'm stoked because (a) my boyfriend has never ever been to a game period...and yes he's 38 years old and (b) we've never done anything like that together. Neither one of us are huge sports fans but we like baseball out of all the choices so I know we'll enjoy ourselves. He has NO idea but I did ask him if he had plans Friday evening to which he replied "not that I'm aware of". LOL He has been bugging me since but I'm not telling!
That said, in preparation for tomorrow's BIG surprise for my boyfriend, I have to buckle down and get a good portion of my research paper that's due this weekend completed. I don't want to worry about that over the weekend! In addition, I need to work out a lesson plan for the Intro to College class and probably buy supplies over the weekend as well.
Health-wise, I'm pleased with my progress so far. I can't believe as of this morning I am only 4 pounds from my first minigoal of being in ONEderland! I imagine it might take me another four weeks but I am ok with waiting. As long as I'm persisting and doing the best I can, I know I'll get there in time!
Originally I was hoping to already be there but then again, I want this to be a sustainable way of life. I realize in life I may go out to eat and have things I normally don't have and I do not want to deprive myself of food because that's when I go through binge episodes.
Hope everyone has an awesome day no matter what happens, keep that chin up!
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20 August 2015
Hi FS Pals!
I just wanted to thank so many of you for your sweet comments and private messages over the last few days. What a great group of support you all are! This is quite honestly probably the key element in weight loss success - a excellent support network. We could try all the diets in the world but without the support, I wonder how much harder it would be? So thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your kind words.
UPDATE - Yesterday was a follow-up with the doctor for my boyfriend's knee. He now only has to wear crutches and the brace "as needed" but his doctor strictly forbade him to climb stairs. He also cannot lift more than 30 pounds.
Because the doctor's visit took an hour longer than anticipated and Wednesday's is when my main assignment is due for two doctoral classes, my dinner plans were not going to work. Therefore, I stopped by Which Wich and got a vegetarian black bean burger sandwich. Despite going over my normal dinner calories, I was under by almost 400 calories at the end of the day (I call that a win!).
On the way home, my boyfriend was talking about his day when suddenly he said something that caused me to do a double-take. I was driving since he can't with his knee and had to ask him what he said again to make sure I heard it right. Apparently yesterday the lead maintenance guy who kind of sort of is his boss but not technically said "I don't think you're as crippled as you make it out to be". He proceeded to tell my boyfriend that he has to go to an apartment to fix a sink. First - the apartment was UPSTAIRS which his doctor said from the beginning NOT to do. Second - fixing a sink requires bending/stooping...again his doctor said NOT to do. This is all in writing on the report to work injury report with light duty restrictions.
Now I love my man to death, I care about him immensely but oh.my.goodness was I livid when he told me this. I asked "Did you tell him, sorry but I can't due to doctor's orders?" Nope! He was not assertive at all and let this guy not only use a word I find revolting, uncouth, unprofessional, and not to mention borderline discrimination (i.e. the word "cripple") but he let him tell him to do something he knew he shouldn't be doing. Let's just say he got quite the "pep talk" yesterday although he referred to it as "the lecture". I told him no job is worth that crap and he's got to stand up for himself.
This lead maintenance guy is no good either because not only does he know all the higher ups but apparently he's gotten a reputation with the residents of the apartment as "a person who wastes company time". He constantly drives around in his truck when he's supposed to be doing work orders, he goes up to the gas station on the clock to fill up his personal truck, when he's in make ready apartments (one's that need cleaned before renting out) he just sits and watches YouTube videos while my boyfriend and another co-worker do all the work, and he smokes all the time without regard for anyone else (my boyfriend has smoke-induced asthma and cannot be around it).
To make matters worse, the other day my boyfriend was in the office and one of the ladies said that the lead was complaining about being "one man down" and that my boyfriend may as well not be there because he's not doing anything. I think it's terrible that his work environment is so toxic that co-workers talk about other co-workers behind each other's back and no one thinks "hey, maybe this isn't such a good thing".
I mentioned this to my group of friends on myfitnesspal and a couple of really good points were brought up. One in particular that stuck out the most was a friend who said not only are these comments affecting my boyfriend negatively emotionally, this can add to stress and lead to slower healing. I never thought about this that way but I'm tired of hearing stories like this because he (and no one for that matter!) deserves to be treated like this.
So last night, I told him he really needs to talk to the apartment manager (who is technically his REAL boss) and let her know what's going on. At least this way it'll be on record that he told somebody. I also said he could contact his case manager but the way it works with his organization - you are supposed to go through the apartment manager first.
Still, can you imagine going through this? I cannot believe people can be so cruel. I am so frustrated but all I can do is comfort my man during this time.
As a side note - I was married to a very abusive man for 2 years. He not only berated me emotionally and mentally, but physically as well. I let this man walk all over me before finally I had had enough. I remember a close friend in college asking me what happened to my arm one day. It was 100 degrees outside and I was wearing a long sleeve that I inadvertently pushed up due to the heat. My friend noticed what looked like bite marks but I made some random excuse. I figured she knew I was lying but I couldn't help it - at the time I was scared of him. It took over two weeks for the marks to fade just enough for no one to be able to tell what it was - it just looked like a normal bruise.
After spiraling in and out of depression to the point of even wanting (and trying twice) to kill myself, I participated in counseling for almost a decade. Depression sucks people, it really does! I've been there done that and never ever ever want to go back again!Counseling taught me so much. It taught me to love myself and to not let anyone walk all over me. It taught me to see the beauty in each day and live each moment like it's my last.
So many people have asked me how I stay so positive, well now you know a little more about me to understand. I've been down the negative so bad I never wanted to wake up, it doesn't get much worse than that. I know what it's like to be in the worse mood ever and I hated how I felt. I was a slave to my emotions. It was not a pleasant experience!
So now, I choose to be positive but at the same time, I am assertive in making sure I respect myself and don't let anyone else treat me like my boyfriend's co-worker is. I think that's why this whole thing frustrated me so much because I know what it's like to be tossed aside and treated worse than a roach.
Bottom line is this - you have two choices. One, you can be miserable in life and blame all the problems on everyone (or everything) else. Or two, you can look at life from a different set of lens and learn to appreciate the beauty in each day. For example, today after almost 3 months without rain, we had our first rain! Guess what, when I came into work everyone was complaining about the rain! I thought to myself, oh my goodness people, the rain made the 100 degree weather into the 70s today and it's amazing outside! People thought I was crazy because I didn't use my umbrella (it was only sprinkling a little bit). I don't want to be that person who complains about things that could end up being a blessing in disguise.
Speaking of - I've had a night to sleep on the situation about my boyfriend and it occurred to me that this could be a blessing in disguise. Not only does he have a witness to what this lead said but he's also got proof about the other things (not working) from several residents including two other co-workers. My motto is document, document, document (I used to be a middle school science teacher turned accountant). Furthermore, this is an opportunity for him to learn how to be assertive. Still, I wish he didn't have to go through that but then again, as much as I wish I wasn't married to a monster, I often wonder if I would have turned out the same way I am today? Would I have learned the value of self-esteem and self-worth? I'm not so sure because you see, life's ups and downs are really opportunities to teach us valuable lessons if you let it. One thing's for sure, I am so happy I didn't turn into a bitter person!
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19 August 2015
Morning Peeps
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Guess what today is? It's a BRAND new day where each of us have a clean state to follow-thru with our goals and plans. Don't you worry about yesterday, the mistakes, the frustrations, the guilt. Today can be different, but the power lies in YOU! Your mind is powerful, it create thoughts which encourage feelings both good and bad. Feelings can turn into actions. Actions can turn into behavior and behavior can turn into habits.
Today, I'd like to propose that we all think about the thoughts we are having inside our heads and see how those thoughts relate to our habits. Are you constantly having positive or negative thoughts? Are you lifting yourself up or putting yourself down with your thoughts? Are your thoughts conducive to your weight loss goals or are they counterproductive? Do you need to rethink some of what you think about so you can be a better you?
If you stop and think about it, I bet each of us have had moments where our thoughts created negative feelings that impacted how we act. The key is to recognize those thoughts when they happen and use strategies to change the thoughts.
The Stop Sign
One thing I do is picture a stop sign in my head. I close my eyes and imagine the corners, color, and the word "STOP" until I can envision the entire stop sign. Then, I open my eyes and the first thing I see I think something positive about.
For example, if I open my eyes and see a chair, I think "I'm so thankful that chair is there for when I'm too tired to stand". You always want to rewire your thoughts in a positive light. This helps me to forget whatever negative thought I had before. If that thought comes back again, I do this strategy or do another one.
Sticky Note Affirmations
Another thing I do is write affirmations on sticky notes and place them in various places where I will see them. I find places I am more tempted to think negatively. For me, looking in the mirror was a big source of my negative thoughts because I am so critical of how I look. Therefore, I will post positive affirmations like "I love your blue eyes" and "You have a beautiful smile" all over my mirror. I have them in my car, on my desk at work, and anywhere else I feel I need to see them. Yes, it might seem strange to outsiders but this has done wonders for helping me stay in a positive mindset.
Journaling
Whether online or in a notebook, writing down your thoughts/feelings is one way to release what's on your mind. However, just writing down your thoughts without following up with a plan will not help you reshape negative thoughts. Therefore, if you do journal, I would encourage you to vent all you want but make sure you end with things you plan on doing to fix whatever negative feeling/thought you are having. This way, you are consciously aware of what the problem is but you also have a plan to go along with it. And you know what they say, failing to plan is planning to fail!
Don't Be Afraid to Ask for Support!
And last but not least, do not be afraid to ask others for advice/support. You never know what great words of wisdom others might share with you. Who knows, you could even develop a lasting friendship as a result. I know how hard it is to ask others for advice because of fear of being judged/ridiculed/criticized but finding a group that is supportive of your unique situation will help. This is why I love this community because people are ever so encouraging here. Find like-minded people who struggle with a similar situation to lean on for support. You'd be surprised at how you both could help each other through encouragement and accountability. I've even found that in this community with a few people who've reached out personally.
And finally, I'd like to ask you all this question:
at what moment did it "click" that you needed to get healthy? What happened? What's your motivation?
For me, it was the realization that I could barely walk up stairs without panting and getting out of breath. I was with a group of friends I hadn't seen in a while and we ended up going out and about. I got tired really quickly and we had barely started our day! I kept going even though I was in immense pain because I didn't want to slow anyone down. That day was awful, I felt like I was a horrible person. I felt fat, unfit, out-of-shape. I knew I needed to change so I could enjoy life! I want to be able to go hiking again - I used to do that all the time. I want to go hiking on a 6 hour hike without getting exhausted just walking to the trail. I love the outdoors and I want to spend it with friends, but I knew I needed to be in better shape before doing that.
I encourage you all to think back on your moment of realization and keep that with you at the forefront of your mind so you have something to fall back on when you have those down days
. This will help curb those negative thoughts and put you right back on the path of focused determination! Let's all remember why we are here and put on our game face today! :)
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