jillbronson's Journal, 21 November 2015

I had a breakthrough yesterday. This time of year painful grief comes up. I try to feel my feelings and just be with them so they pass through. Each minute I have to keep reminding myself to not use food to comfort myself. I asked my husband to hold me and although he is not a naturally cuddly person, he came through. I also used a cat and blanket on my lap for comfort and to keep myself from getting up to get food. I finally went to bed early knowing that I'd wake up feeling better. Full disclosure: I did eat a candy bar while at work and that's unusual for me. But I minimized the potential damage. I wish I knew how to process my grief more easily and quickly.

Diet Calendar Entries for 21 November 2015:
1165 kcal Fat: 43.00g | Prot: 50.00g | Carb: 146.00g.   Breakfast: Healthy Choice Cafe Steamers Asian Inspired Sweet Sesame Chicken. Lunch: Lion's Choice Ham Sandwich. Dinner: Trader Joe's Tempura Shrimp Crunch Rolls. Snacks/Other: See's Candies Chocolate Lollypop, See's Candies Butterscotch Lollipop, See's Candies Milk Chocolate Bordeaux. more...
1991 kcal Activities & Exercise: 5192 steps - 16 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...

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People go through it in crazy different ways, ive seen some people that just blow my mind in how they process grief and attachment issues. Idk how long it's been or how serious and im not asking, but its perfectly normal to hold on to feelings and memorys for years and even decades, unless its creating unhealthy and unstable life processes id say your ok 
21 Nov 15 by member: gswizzle
Sorry to hear you're going through a bad time. My family and I get that way every Halloween (our brother was killed in a car accident, he was only four). I'm glad to hear your husband was there for you. If you can, maybe you could try going for a walk? Ask a friend to go with you. 
21 Nov 15 by member: Amy7Lynn
If you don't already, you might try journalling. Do it in the morning and make yourself do it. I am going through intensive therapy and started journalling after years of therapists suggesting it. I had to make myself sit down and type out things that I was keeping hidden including feelings. At first it didn't help me but after a week of it I was addicted and now I feel like it's helping. Good luck to you during this hard time, I can totally relate to your situation.  
21 Nov 15 by member: traccie
Thanks for sharing. I was wondering lately how people will get through the holiday season when they still are grieving. Sorry that this is such a sad time for many. Sorry Amy7Lynn. Jillbronson, and other members, I will be here for you 
21 Nov 15 by member: Sugar Waffle
Thanks everyone for your thoughtful, helpful responses. I did some neural emotional technique (NET) work yesterday and am so much better. 
22 Nov 15 by member: jillbronson

     
 

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