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morning rant:
I HATE being fat.
How did I let this happen to myself?
What a long journey back it is going to be. 28 pounds at least.
I am so disappointed in myself and just want to crawl into bed and stop eating and sleep until 28 pounds is gone.
My clothes don't fit, I refuse to buy a whole new wardrobe, I feel angry and want to blame any number of difficult family circumstances in the past year for why this happened: son's trip to rehab, brother's heart attack, daughter's engagement broken and mended, husband's broken leg, my crazy job that has me traveling all the time... AND I know that there is no one to blame BUT ME.
I am disgusted with myself, sad that in 3 months I will still be fat at my daughter's wedding, and basically just want to crawl under a rock.
Diet Calendar Entry for 04 June 2017:
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950 kcal
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Fat: 34.05g | Prot: 57.40g | Carb: 106.09g.
Breakfast: Chobani Lowfat Mix't Berries Greek Yogurt Drink. Lunch: Panera Bread Chicken Soba Noodle Salad with Peanut Sauce (Half), Lettuce Salad with Assorted Vegetables (Including Tomatoes and/or Carrots). Dinner: Vinaigrette Dressing, Lettuce Salad with Assorted Vegetables (Including Tomatoes and/or Carrots), Cooked Mushrooms (Fat Added in Cooking), Marketside Boneless Skinless Chicken Breasts, Fruit Salad (without Citrus Fruits). more...
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