Yearofhealth2023's Journal, 03 April 2024

I feel much better if I eat on plan too but I don't often enough.  

well there's always next time to make a different decision and not feed your addiction. dust yourself off and get back on your normal path. good luck  

Aww, I'm just like that, too. I think i can, I think I can, nooooo I can't. I did that last month with cookies I made for someone. omg, S U G A R 🤣 I didn't show a gain, but I didn't lose for the next 3 weeks because of it. I wish we knew why it's such an addiction. I'd eat the whole gallon of ice cream.  

Jenabba i was so sick Monday (when i ate that massive amount) and thru the evening and even woke up yesterday unwell and yet had another couple cups feeling sick yesterday before i ran water into the container to destroy it. It is exactly what OTB said, addiction. I knew it, i know it. It opens up some kind of neural pathway in the brain that for some people becomes addiction. No different than the person who can pick up alcohol and drink massively but then not be interested while for another it becomes an alcoholism or drugs and drug addiction. I think it is the same receptors in the brain. 

OTB-ive been so careful and so diligent and yet….so im looking for the duster to clean myself up with 🧹. Thanks my friend. No more parties in the near future at my house so that should help. Addiction sucks no matter what form it takes. Sigh. 

Morticia i honestly realized how lethargic and sick i felt and yet still wanted more. Uggggggg 

I sooooo hear this 

Proud of you 👏 🥰  

Baby steps. But your course corrected and are making progress. Yea!! 

Yup! ADDICTION. Thanks for sharing. We are not alone. I'm so sorry you got sick. That's a terrible feeling. Sadly, I don't feel sick from it, it just puts me in a sleep coma and since I don't sleep well, it feels good. LoL. Probably like someone who smoked weed. I rarely drink, never had a prob with anything but food. Oh I hate to admit it but I've done the melting with hot water get rid of it trick. CAKE soaked in water flushed. It's not good enough to just throw away. It still CALLS ME. Ahhh , it's crazy. And when we snap and do it, it's like there's no warning.  

I'm glad you were able to maintain your weight! Sorry you got tummy sick but maybe that is a lesson learned. I can have stuff in the house and not partake...Joe eats Haagen Das, loves Oreo cakesters, Peanut butter wafer cookies, etc. I don't like that stuff so I'm not tempted but my prob is I think about food constantly. I'm already planning next meal while eating current meal ..lol 

JC-o my goodness thank you. Im mildly horrified like watching a car crash. I couldnt look away from the calamity i was perpetuating.😜 

Sssuu50-yep. Till next time. . I know there will be another time but hopefully it is short lived. 

Jenjabba-sounds like you are my sister from another mister (and missus). That is it exactly. I have never done drugs, nor tobacco, i dont drink never really did but good Lord sugar, fat and shopping are my kryptonite. Yep it was hot water on the ice cream. Hubs threw away the cake and the chips and i will be honest if he hadn’t i would have consumed. He didnt know we had ice cream. I told him about the debacle of nearly 1/2 gallon of ice cream consumed in 24 hours. He said, “yep, thats addiction.” Followed by, “i didnt know we had ice cream! I wanted some!” LOL. He doesnt have the same issues with food i do but as he is nearly 24 years sober from alcohol he understands addiction in that framework. It’s all the same. I could not believe i was secretly bingeing in a way i would NEVER do with an audience. At 60! I was concerned about that type of food in the house but it was the most economical offering for so many people (chips, nuts, fruit, veg tray and dreaded cake, cookies and ice cream). If i was a cook may have had a different outcome. Big sigh. Wish i was alone in this issue. It’s not fun and sorry you feel it too. 

Diana, it’s not the first nor 100th time i have made myself sick from either sugar or fat items in my life. I can go years and be super fanatical about abstaining but it just takes that once. Or in this case 3 days…i have managed to reign in my spending post retirement (also an addiction) so why is this one so much harder. I also think about food constantly, but unlike you, i cannot have it in the house. I do wake up planning what my food intake for the day will look like. I do not know how to log my stuff today as i actually bought a kale, chickpea salad thing from the deli which i never do. What the heck? You have done an amazing job at maintaining my love. Just as sssuu50 said. Baby steps 

Next time you make a party, remember you are going up and down the house cleaning, preparing, checking on people, and a lot of activity you don't normally do. Enjoy a small slice of cake and a bit of ice cream without guilt, as you have been moving more than usual, then keep on as if nothing happened. Worrying and feeling guilty can make yourself hungry or push you to compensate in other forms. So, nothing to see here, just keep doing what you are doing according to your plans. Depriving is not the way, portioning and keeping active usually balance things out nicely. Thinking about food as fuel and building blocks for your body health may also help, instead of thinking in food as a treat. So you spent more energy making the party happening, and then you refueled from the extra effort. All good! Nothing to feel guilty about. I hope I' commenting in a kind way, sorry if something doesn't come out right, as I just joined the website, and this is the first post I read. Sending my words with love.  

Blackwolfy-i wish i could say that was true but i keep my house super clean so not much preparation there and i didnt cook but ordered food items to pick up. Super easy breezy and socializing is fun for me so not really a ton more activity sadly. It’s a battle i have fought many times in my life just hoping something was different this time. So back to no bad food in the house and moving forward. Thank you for the kind words and everything you said came out exactly right. Appreciate the love and back at ya!!!! 

Familiar story for me too. If it’s in the house I turn into a squirrel packing in the sugar like acorns. See’s candy was delivered yesterday and my husband and daughter were both squirrels stuffing it in like it was time to store nuts for the Winter. I usually pick my favorite one and then go back throughout the day and pack those babies in like a delusional maniac!!! Then, I feel so sick and get mad at myself. You know I am in a bad place when I saw and smelled the new, full box luring me to start the sweet feast, but passed on it yesterday. Today, there were only 3 pieces left!!!! My hubby and daughter were very kind squirrels to leave my favorite one. I took it out of the box and left it next to it and said thank you, I’m saving it until those other two pieces are gone. So, my favorite bad boy is waiting for me tomorrow. If I eat just one it will be the first time in my life eating See’s that I ate only one. Progress not perfection! 🐿️ 

I’m the same but you are way stronger than me I can’t bring myself to throw stuff out. It’s also so hard to resist buying my favs when I see them. I found food shopping is a struggle. Mmmm maybe I should just do food delivery for now on. Less temptation. Ok sorry enough about me!! Congratulations on the no gain and the strength to throw stuff out and resist!!! 

I get it. We all have our issues with foods etc. When I said I can have unhealthy foods in the house and not be tempted, it’s because most of them are Joes processed stuff. I didn’t like them even when I was fat…but, I struggle from abstaining from the other stuff like salty treats and crunchy stuff. Some days I feel consumed about how much I think about foods and what I can/ cannot eat. I support your WOE and I know you will do what you need to do. BTW, you look beautiful in that dress. I love your style. We are going to visit my son in Colorado this summer and I haven’t seen him in 4 years! I’m so nervous and wish I had you to be my stylist! 💜💜