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Ok-- yesterday I posted " have noticed that OVERALL, my depression that I struggle with, has not raised it's ugly head .. "-- man I knew that was a mistake when I posted that. I am kind of down tonight.. why..
Well my wife and I started dieting at the same time.. but we are doing it differently.. She is just eating less and more healthier, I am counting calories- and well she is not exercising and I am-- she is sort of upset with me for not supporting her-- such as going out exercising together. She feels that I am just "patting her" on her head.. and buying her "diet" food..
I exercise alone due to the fact that we work on different shifts.
Even though she is not exercising, she is in better health than I am, and well her work outs are 'better' than mine.. she can walk faster, and longer than I can.. and well do more than I can.. call it male pride- but it does bother me...I feel embarrassed, even in front of my own wife.. of how fat I am..
Ok, just fyi...my wife and I were married in 1980- due to stupid decisions on both of our parts, not going to go into it, we divorced in 2000. We had good working relationship concerning our kids but that is bout it. Four years later, my wife came to me, asking for forgiveness for her part in our divorce.. I forgave her, and asked forgiveness as well.. we started dating.. and then bout a month later- we were remarried. we are still happily married.. really we are..yes we have our moments like all couples..but over all-- we are very happy with each other.
We have faced challenges-- I have had three hernia surgeries, two knee surgeries, a gall bladder surgery, all recovery times- I had no income coming in. She stuck with me, thru thick and thin.. I guess she is worried that I will "leave her"== cause she mentioned that she was the one that stuck by me during those times, and loved me when I was fat..(I still am).. guess she has a lot of fears.. I love her.. I truly believe that God has chosen her for me.. Guess this might be coming from her not loosing as much as I am.. and well from a season of depression that she is having.. not sure...
Ok so how can I support her? I want her to know that I want to support her, more than a pat on the head.. as she puts it... any suggestions?
No I did not exercise tonight..
Diet Calendar Entry for 26 May 2014:
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1730 kcal
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Fat: 44.23g | Prot: 129.86g | Carb: 560.56g.
Breakfast: Healthy Life Low Sodium High Fiber White Bread, Kroger Lite Orange Yogurt, Sun Chips Sweet and Spicy BBQ, Oscar Mayer Oven Roasted Chicken Breast Sandwich Meat, Apples. Lunch: Fiber One Chewy Bars - Oats & Chocolate, Kroger The Truly Awesome Low Fat Yogurt with Stevia, Healthy Life Low Sodium High Fiber White Bread, Lay's Baked! Original Potato Crisps (Package), Oscar Mayer Oven Roasted Chicken Breast Cuts, Fit & Active Cookie Dough Protein Energy Bar. Dinner: Healthy Life Low Sodium High Fiber White Bread, Oscar Mayer 98% Fat Free Honey Roasted Turkey Breast, Fiber One 90 Calorie Brownies - Chocolate Fudge. Snacks/Other: Orville Redenbacher's Air Popped Popcorn, Kroger Sugar Free Ice Pix. more...
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