So I'm back again. Age 37, almost 38, and back where I started. Only bigger. Discovered some things about my overeating that I don't want to face, but I have to if I am going to be a healthy woman, able to do well in my roles as wife, mother, midwife, friend, daughter, and sister.

I cannot live like this anymore.

I want to feel healthy, strong, energetic, rested, and whole. I would like to believe that losing 30 pounds is incidental to those things, but I know it's not.

I have no health issues. Yet. I must keep them at bay because I desire to live and work and play until I'm 95.

Here's to starting over.

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I am a Christian wife & mommy to four kids. I have had four children in the space of four years. Needless to say, I have had no time to let my body get back to normal, and breastfeeding was not the weight-loss panacea for me that it is for many women. In fact, my body seems to want to keep its weight as long as I'm nursing. Weird.

My yuoungest is now three years old, and I am weighing in at 154lbs. I'm 29 years old, and feel ready to start something. What, I don't know yet.

I'm hoping to lose 20-25lbs of mostly belly fat.