madaboutmoose's Journal, 12 March 2010

Day 418
Calories 1556
Weight 179.6 (-.2)

I am struggling with maintaining a balanced and positive attitude. By the time I got home yesterday I was really tired and never did get anything done that I had planned ... and the internet connection was extremely spotty due to weather (snow ... not a lot but snow). So finally I decided it was not going to happen and tried to relax.

This morning I am pumped to get things done. Hubby calls about 7 am ... his dad is on his way to the hospital ... some type of paranoia ... anxiety ... something. We have a non-refundable hotel room reserved for Saturday night. I sound selfish even mentioning it I suppose. I didn't get what I needed done yesterday because they needed groceries ... including milk and their phone card charged. I arrive there and milk isn't on the list ... Kleenex, grapefruit, Ensure, strawberry ice-cream, & blueberry muffins are the only things on the list. I asked about the milk and she tells me her neighbor got it for them. I am thinking to myself ... if the neighbor got the milk and there were only 5 items on the list why did she only get the milk? ... I drove 45 minutes into town for FIVE items. A quarter of a tank of gasoline for FIVE items. I guess SIX items wouldn't have made me feel any better.

So ... despite my frustration I am determined to make today productive. I'm waiting to hear from hubby about FIL's status. Sounds like a medication issue ... I hope that is all it is. He has an appointment with the dentist who will eventually do his oral surgery this afternoon. Perhaps that won't happen either.

Okay ... five things ... need to focus here ... not 'feeling' it ...

1. I have an internet connection
2. laundry is started which means I won't have to do it this weekend
3. my mother is healthy
4. talking to my best friend last night ... even though it was because she is having a tough time
5. Mexico in less than 30 days

Okay. I'm just going to do it. I'm going to concentrate ... stop worrying about what tomorrow holds ... breathe in and out ... and take each moment as it comes!!!

179.2 lb Lost so far: 80.0 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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2023 kcal

Fat: 48.13g | Prot: 105.55g | Carb: 288.65g.   Breakfast: Cracked Wheat Bread, Fiber One, Turkey Meatloaf, water, butter, 100 Calorie Multigrain English Muffin, Lite Jarlsberg, large egg. Lunch: cracked wheat bread, Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins, Starkist Albacore Tuna, Jarlsberg Lite, low fat best foods mayonaisse, Blue Bunny Light Yogurt. Dinner: Cracked Wheat Bread, Healthy Choice Lobster Cheese Ravioli. Snacks/Other: Cafe Latte Little Pop, air popcorn, Eating Right Potato Crisps, Pinot Grigio, Snickers Marathon Dark Chocolate Crunch. more...

2978 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 4 hours and 15 minutes, Desk Work - 9 hours, Driving - 2 hours, Precor Elliptical - 45 minutes. more...