Annabelle3117's Journal, 21 October 2015

Good morning, buddies. Long time no chat. I have been struggling with anxiety and depression, and as you can see it has taken its toll on my weight and so much more. Hell, at one point in time I was 100% set on dropping out of nursing school, but I didn't.

The worst of the storm seems to have passed and I'm here trying to pick up those pieces and move along.

I have had a few clinical weekends and an IV therapy day since we last chatted. I started 2/3 IV attempts successfully, which is pretty good compared to other students. Clinicals have been going good, and I only have one more day left in this set, that will be on Halloween. My next set of clinicals will start with one weekend in December, then the rest after the new year. I am SOOO looking forward to the break in November. I need it. I got a 100% on an exam, my first 100% in this course, then on the day I planned on quitting I took an exam I hadn't studied for and got 97%. I took it as a sign to keep on trudging forward. Maybe the break from clinicals will be what I need to get my eating and exercise back on track.

Some other student started some drama and shit talking in class, one girl I had considered a good friend for the past year so that didn't help my cause but I got through that too. Haters gonna hate.

So on my way home from clinical this past Sunday I was driving down a four lane highway when a momma cat ran across the road with a baby in her mouth. She dropped the baby midway through the two southbound lanes and took off like a bat out of hell. I pulled over immediately and miraculously the baby had not been hit, so I took her home. She is about five weeks old, a real little spitfire. Not afraid of anything, not human or 85lb dog. I think I'm going to call her Dynamite. Yes, that makes four cats when I swore I would never have more than one. *Sigh* I'm a save the kitten kind of girl. Here is my sweet baby:



So, my back on track plan is to not eat any more processed food than I have to. I'm broke, severely. So I will make do with what I have for the remainder of the week, count calories, limit simple sugars. I'm going to get some exercise and get back to reporting here daily.

Hope everyone is well, missed you guys.
198.0 lb Lost so far: 88.0 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entries for 21 October 2015:
1431 kcal Fat: 60.07g | Prot: 64.06g | Carb: 154.32g.   Breakfast: Banana Blueberry Green Smoothie, Coffee-Mate Original Powder Creamer. Lunch: Egg, Great Value Wheat Sandwich Bread, Blue Bonnet Light Butter. Dinner: Publix Ground Chuck 80/20, Reggano Premium Pasta Sauce Flavored with Meat, Great Value Enriched Spaghetti. Snacks/Other: Great Value 2% Reduced Fat Milk, Great Value Garlic Bread, Smartfood White Cheddar Cheese Popcorn. more...
1584 kcal Activities & Exercise: FitBit Tracker - 24 hours. more...
gaining 1.7 lb a week

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What a cute kitten. Yolanda hang in there I think you made the right choice to stay in school seems like you are going to be a brilliant nurse, and to haters screw'em you don't have to go home and see them at night just at school, all you have to do is be cordial, and don't take no crap off anybody.  
21 Oct 15 by member: Rockiesfan
Cute cat, congrats on the highs scores in tests, well done! 
21 Oct 15 by member: snezica
welcome back ,, we have missed you . Glad your ok and have things back on track. Keep us posted . Don't ever give up on your dreams . God will prevail just be patient .  
21 Oct 15 by member: Tamarah Jo
Keep moving forward Yolanda... You CAN do it...You WILL do it... We ALL have your back Buddy!!! Don't be a stranger from those positive people in your life... be a stranger for those "haters" you have in your life... Welcome Back! 
21 Oct 15 by member: millerm40
Welcome back! We are all here for you because we know you CAN do it. 
21 Oct 15 by member: kclab
It's great to have you back. Sorry there's been some struggles but am glad that you're in a better place now. You've done so well with nursing. I'm sure the classes, clinicals, and everything involved can be very stressful and overwhelming at times. If nursing is what you really want, where you feel you are called to, I would encourage you to stick with it and persevere through it. It might seem like forever now but it will be over and you'll be headed down a bright new career path that you worked hard to get to. I was short sighted when I was younger and didn't stick with several education paths, spent 5 years in college with nothing to show for it. At 57 years old I've got a job now I really enjoy but it took decades of work drudgery to finally get here.  
21 Oct 15 by member: jmb3450
Welcome back! Remember, this is a marathon, not a sprint. You can do it! 
21 Oct 15 by member: notjune1
Yolanda, I so glad you are back and still fighting!! The kitten is sweet. You will be an awesome nurse...there will be battles and victories as with anything we tackle in life.  
21 Oct 15 by member: aggie95
OMG - that kitten is wonderful and you are great for doing the rescue. NEVER GIVE UP, anxiety and depression are highly treatable - do you have some outside help? not medicine so much but a counselor? Not to be too personal...I work with people all day and help them with anxious and depressed symptoms. You can feel better. 
21 Oct 15 by member: HCB
Glad you're back Sweet Girl. We're always here for you. :~)  
21 Oct 15 by member: ClassicRocker
I've been MIA for a while, too. Good to hear your back on track!  
21 Oct 15 by member: mgrill
We all need a break sometimes :) Congrats on the grades! You will make an awesome nurse. Keep hanging in there. The kitten is adorable. Poor mama cat! I bet she misses her baby. You are going to be a great mama figure for her. 
21 Oct 15 by member: kattay

     
 

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