debbra's Journal, 06 November 2009

I didn't go to the meeting this morning. I might go tomorrow morning. I'm going to just try to push myself on my own to see whether I can get back on track. I'd forgotten how expensive the meetings are. Even the 9 dollars a week seems like a lot. Am I being cheap? Maybe it would all even out in the end because I'd buy less food. That's probably true. But I find that when it comes down to it, I don't feel like putting the extra time on a weekly basis to go to the meeting. I always tend to become irritated by the commitment after a few meetings. Is it my whole problem with sticking to things? I don't know. All I know for sure is that I HATE the state my body is in.

I want to remind myself that I can actually FEEL the extra 50 or so pounds on my body. I've been gaining and losing a lot lately, and I'm sure it's very bad for my health. Since May I've lost 10 and gained back 20 pounds. That's a huge stress on the body. I need to lose the weight, eat normally, eat when I'm hungry but not too much, and try to eat low calorie/points foods. That's the only way to do it. Then just enjoy exercise and movement and try to do as much of it as possible. I need to be slower to grab the food and spend more time contemplating the end results of my decisions. Wish me luck!

Breakfast 9:30 a.m. -- 4 points 327 cals.
treadmill 75 min. about 4 miles
snack apple 11:20 a.m. -- 1.5 points 109 cals.
lunch 3:45 p.m. -- 8.5 points 486 cals.
snack 4:45 p.m. coffee and tortilla






daily 5:

I just finished a painting

I'm going to buy a new couch today

Perfect weather today: Jeans and a t-shirt

Everyone I love is happy and healthy

I feel energized

169.7 lb Lost so far: 0 lb.    Still to go: 11.7 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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1618 kcal

Fat: 51.17g | Prot: 113.10g | Carb: 201.60g.   Breakfast: splenda, western bagel sweet wheat, Fat Free Cream Cheese, fat free milk, hazelnut coffee, bread 45 calories, Dubble Bubble Gum Balls. Lunch: tortilla factory, beets, salmon, nancy's, kidney beans, lettuce, broccoli, tomatoes, tomatoes. Dinner: tri tip, avocado, 45 calorie bread. Snacks/Other: splenda, fat free milk, hazelnut coffee, 2 % american cheese. more...

2380 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Exercise machine (slow) - 1 hour and 15 minutes, Resting - 14 hours and 45 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...