madaboutmoose's Journal, 08 March 2014

Saturday! Hello!

A friend of mine who lives a bit north of me posted a picture of a red Robin in her field this morning! Awesome! We still have snow and ice but we are at a higher elevation. Maybe Spring really is coming?! Which actually gives me even more motivation to stay on track. I very much want to be able to hike this summer withou lugging an extra 40 lb around. Okay an extra 20. It would be amazing if I lost 4o lbs by summer. LOL!

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So a little dip again on the scale this morning. Love it when that happens. I know it is unrealistic to expect this everyday but when it does happen I do smile. Dips down and I know I'll have fluctuations up. I do find the fluctuations up don't upset me as much as they have in the past. I'm better at taking them in stride. I am feeling the difference too. A little in my clothes but what I really notice is walking at work. I feel lighter! Oh I remember this feeling and how good it felt. As I carried something heavy ( a case of bottled water) up a flight of stairs on Tuesday I remember thinking, I wonder how much this weighs? I used to carry this much extra weight all the time. Wow. No wonder I felt crappy.

Bella's journal recently got me to thinking about my own journey. She was sharing about maintaining, not counting every calorie, and her thoughts & awareness about her journey. I have lost and gained many times in my life as I know is a familiar story to many of us. I joined fatsecret I think 5 years ago in January. Lost a significant amount of weight by summer and did managed to maintain, more or less, for a good long stretch. Then I started the gain/ lose cycle again, never getting up as high as I once had been but each time gaining a little more.

It caused me to ponder the reasons why. My husband (while what he eats is very tempting for me) has always been my biggest fan and coach. He doesn't really care what I weigh. What he does care about is how I beat up on myself and he cares about my health. A lot of stressful things have gone on in the past 5 years. I maintained and even lost through the first few (initial cancer diagnosis and treatment) but somewhere along the way began to fall back into old patterns. DH always tells me I know how to do this, I have control, when I'm ready I will nail it. I think he is right. Shhh ... Don't tell him! LOL

Am I a food addict? No. Many thin people love food and eat quite poorly! There is nothing wrong with loving to eat. I do use food as a drug at times and I do have a tendency to be on the compulsive, driven side of the fence. But none of that is beyond my control. Do certain foods trigger a mindless binge? Sure. But not predictably. Sometimes one square of excellent chocolate is quite satisfying. At other times one square is not nearly enough! But I think it isn't the chocolate that's the trigger. I think it is a host of other things with it, how tired am I? What was my nutrition that day? How negative am I? How emotional am I? What stresses am I dealing with? And on and on.

I'm still a ways off from where I was when I initially joined here. I think the range my body is most comfortable at is between 178 and 185, maybe even 190. At 217.8 you can see I've a ways to go. Which is part of the reason I'm only looking at 10 lbs at a time. Working towards 209 right now. And I did successfully maintain for a while without counting calories. I've had to return to it to get myself back on track, help my body adjust to being ready to be healthier.

Anyway I feel like I've rambled on far too long and was able to say what I was thinking much more precisely on Bella's journal! Should have just copied and pasted it.

Time to see if DH is ready to wake up, pour myself another cup of Java and decide what form of exercise I'd like to do today! Thanks for being here, and to all my "old" buddies ... You just can't imagine the smiles that come to my face with each comment I read! Thank you!
217.8 lb Lost so far: 41.4 lb.    Still to go: 32.8 lb.    Diet followed 100%.

Diet Calendar Entries for 08 March 2014:
890 kcal Fat: 22.50g | Prot: 60.00g | Carb: 114.00g.   Lunch: Wendy's Asian Cashew Chicken Salad, Wendy's Sour Cream & Chives Baked Potato. Dinner: Smart Ones Smart Creations Home Style Beef Pot Roast. more...
2690 kcal Activities & Exercise: Elliptical - 30 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
losing 2.8 lb a week


Comments 
Good for you! I'm glad you're feeling lighter. I also saw a robin recently. it makes me feel good that better weather is coming. 
08 Mar 14 by member: springskinny
Sounds like you are in a good place and doing fine. My dad used to say a robin on the birdfeeder was a harbinger of spring - for me its always the snowdrops and winter aconite.  
08 Mar 14 by member: flaxseed
I wonder about it too - the regain after so many times testifying the ever repeated 'never again'. I think that's why I revisit the topic so often. A red robin ... sigh. Would love to see one :-) 
08 Mar 14 by member: FullaBella
Thanks for the post. Excellent. 
08 Mar 14 by member: ClassicRocker
I saw "red robin" and my mind went to burgers and ff, lol! They have some awesome burgers. 
08 Mar 14 by member: Suzi161
Ha! Red Robin! They do make great burgers. Fortunately the one closest to my house is a long drive, 1 1/2 hours away! 
08 Mar 14 by member: madaboutmoose
Carol, so glad to read that you are doing well! I know that by the time summer gets here you will be back into "onederland"! I understand exactly what you mean about the chocolate and the cravings for more. Sometimes I do great, other times I want the whole darned bar! lol Have a great weekend! And thanks so much for being a great friend...I truly appreciate the support. :) HUGS! 
08 Mar 14 by member: ctlss
Happy Dancing for the loss...a little at a time adds up...:O) 
09 Mar 14 by member: BHA

     
 

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