kingkeld's Journal, 06 February 2014

Good morning!

Phew, what a day yesterday.

There was a lot on my plate (pun intended) and it shows.

I'm up in weight, up in fat, down in fluid. Hey, at least muscle mass is the same. :)

I'm not gonna beat myself over the head over it. It is what it is, and it's obvious why.

I stress when I do things that relate to my work situation. I stress when I talk about it or when I have to deal with it one way or another.

And yesterday, I had to deal with some.

...

I went to the psychologist.

It was actually a very positive and nice experience, though we didn't get very far. I didn't count on going very far, at least not the first time.

We basically spent the time having me talk about the whole situation, so she'd know more about what's going on, along with me telling about me in general.

We talked about the weight loss, the work, the bad situation, and many other things.

It was nice to get to talk about it with someone "outside the group". Someone that isn't invested in it in any way.

Well, I told her my whole story, and about the situation at work. She was, to say the least, shocked.

She was telling me, that with all the pressure on me right now, she's actually surprised how WELL I'm holding up. Apparantly, I'm a lot stronger than many.

She was very concerned with my heart situation on top of the stress. She can easily see where I am coming from in all of this.

It was nice to get a confirmation on the whole thing. It was nice to hear an outsider tell me that I'm not just paranoid or whiny.

I'm going back late next week for more, and I hope we will start moving forward.

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So, after going there, I walked home. It's a nice, long walk. The sun was out, and it was just beautiful.

But, getting all the new impressions to sink in, and dealing with having to tell everything one more time, things just spun out of control.

At first I decided to not have my pre planned lunch. I wanted pizza, and could easily get it to fit within my numbers. But then came the urges for sugar, and those I couldn't control.

I ate too much, of the wrong things.

I did meet my required numbers on proteins, fat and fiber. At least, there's that. But I was WAY over in carbs. I ate junk.

Damage wasn't all THAT bad, but not good enough. I didn't have my water either. This - probably more than anything - has most likely affected my weight.

I'll just do better today. Hopefully. :)

...

Today, I'm thankful for:
- A reasonable night's sleep.
- Morning coffee.
- A feeling of being on track, even if I did perform poorly yesterday. Damn stress.
- Wife.

Have a great day!

Life is good!
193.6 lb Lost so far: 148.2 lb.    Still to go: 6.2 lb.    Diet followed poorly.
on diet kingkeld's own diet   gaining 26.2 lb a week

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I'm glad you found a professional to talk to. It's great to get that independent ear... hang in there on the macros! I am up in weight a bit but I'll be damned if the muscle mass isn't increasing just like you said it would! You'll get back on track today! 
05 Feb 14 by member: Draglist
Good to hear, Bill! There's nothing to be afraid of, though changing systems can be terrifying. This one is legit, though. It works. And it's dead easy.  
05 Feb 14 by member: kingkeld
Glad it went well for you Keld, Don't worry about the increase, knowing about a problem is half way to fixing it, Ive no doubt at all this is just a temporary thing for you and all will be well. Being a music nut as you are thought you might be interested to hear I went to See Bruce Springsteen and the E street band last night and WOW what a concert, simply amazing. if you ever get the chance to see them live do not hesitate, by far the best gig Ive ever seen, and Ive seen lots. 
05 Feb 14 by member: Kingstephen
I have same problem stress eating,mainly stress over work.Somebody told me to read The Power of Now by Eckhard Tolle,it's helping me to deal with the stress and consequently the diet.Hope it helps.  
06 Feb 14 by member: gavinot
I already told you, you are stronger than most, King. That is why you are my big idol. Have a realaxing day, and let it all sink in a little...  
06 Feb 14 by member: puhpine
Nice to hear about The Boss, Steve! Glad you had fun! :) I've been wanting to see him, but it just haven't been in the cards for me. I guess I'll have to "settle" for Deep Purple this coming Tuesday. :) 
06 Feb 14 by member: kingkeld
I appreciate it, Puhpine. :) It's Steve also says, I am sure this is a temporary thing. I'll claw my way to the top no matter what. :) 
06 Feb 14 by member: kingkeld
Hi Keld, I have been following your recent situation since I came back to F's, however i couldn't add anything different to your other buddies comments, now hopefully I can offer a point that may help. My first marriage was very turbulent, at our worst we both went to a marriage guidance therapist and landed so lucky with her as she remained in contact with me throughout my life. My husband and i went to see her separately. My thoughts were like clothes in the washing machine, tumbling around over and over again never escaping the tangled heap, ( not a very good washing machine, eh!!) Anyway, each time I left my sessions, I felt NO difference in my thoughts, they were still a jumble and still felt emotionally drained, however, I think it was the fourth or fifth week, I came out less drained my brain felt lighter like a path was being cleared to make way for a lucid thought to stand alone, I never looked back after that. So in short, it takes a while. You know that but I thought it would help to share my experience. I hope so. Much love Sazy. Xx 
06 Feb 14 by member: sazy
Glad the psychologist was helpful or that you could relate to her. The help will come as you work together. Hang in there, supporting you in cyberland as always. 
06 Feb 14 by member: sarahsmum

     
 

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